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Last post ever

2009-09-15T03:09:00.003+08:00

went to watch G-force with beloveds.
love th movie and th game :D
we should have this kind of outing/meetups more often.
perhaps once every 2-3 mths? Love you all deep deep!

Travis kor enlistment's today.
so im going to send him off tgt with Ting and Ken.
left a few mre hours so im not slping if not i wont be able to wake up early.
will definitely miss him! & i hope Ting doesnt cry later.
im scared she will since she's emotional.
better prepare tissue just in case. :x
YAH exco meeting tmrw. and choir pract at night.
feels like ages since i last attended choir pract !

there's certain memories i wish to forget
so im stopping this blog wef from today. this shall be my last post on this blog.
because im moving to a new location.
see you! :)

long week

2009-09-14T00:20:00.002+08:00

okay. im back at last (:
well.. my trip to HK wasnt that bad.
i spent more on food than on clothes.
throughout the days i were there, i was feeling sad somehow.
but i wont elaborate on that, or why i felt sad.
it was hard to find xiao long baos there. ):
but i managed to eat some still. yay ! :D
& i love airplane meals. Each meal came with appetiser, biscuits and desert.
managed to watch Angels & Demons, and Night at the Musuem on the plane.
after touchdown, went to the DFS shop to buy liquor/wine.
absolut vodka limited edition had a damn chio packaging so i bought one bottle! :D
headed off to PS for World Mental Health Day. did the mystery gift booth with Mingqing and then accompanied steph at her booth for a while.. headed to meet YAH VM team to discuss. had dinner at Just Acia. their steamed dumplings nt bad.
we discussed for nearly 2 hrs, plus eating time. aft tt, headed to downtown east for ken's chalet.
saw daniel in the same bus lane as me! so we chatted a bit.
ate, played game, played sparklers and kena burned a bit, then went back to chalet.
showered and slept. there were more than 10 of us sleeping in a room.
but we still managed to slp. not bad eh. lols.
slept till abt 10+, stoned, play mj, used th sucky internet connection and then had lunch aft th rain stopped before going back to chalet and pick up some stuffs to bring back to ken's hse.
dylan's father was so kind to send us from pasir ris back to bp. and then th rest to cck, then pasir ris again. (:

this coming week im still pretty free. will be going job hunting and meeting up with friends. whee~ gnite ppl ! :D

God spoke to me

2009-09-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

i rmb blogging but somehow my post wasnt posted.
anyway to cut everything short..
here's a brief update.

1st Sept went for dim sum buffet @ putien to celebrate Teacher's day.
my slip-ons broke so i bought a new pair of slippers from Cotton On.
went to shihui's grandma's funeral aft tt. kinda sad ):

2nd Sept-4th Sept spent watching dramas/videos etc.

4th Sept went sch to collect race pack, early dinner.
went for cg. met darling for supper at hk cafe.
the ramen there aint too bad. go try if u havent ! :D

5th sept had piano lesson. my theory sucks. arghh
wore boots to serve at S2, had a great time at svc.
God spoke to me during "I just want You" about my future.
its been a qn that's been in my heart for very long.
im glad tht ive gotten th answer to this qn (:
so for this 2-4 years, I will focus on serving Him and doing my best.
i was a lil skeptical abt it but aft a while, i decided to believe and have faith :D

2 more days before I flyyyyy. eggcited :D
meeting xuan girlf tmrw. LALALA~
what an awesome week this is going to be !
next update would be either next sun or mon.
that's all. take care ! (:

Love 02 skin!

2009-08-31T22:41:00.000+08:00

Went 02 Skin for th final day of up to 85% off.
omg just within this sale period (since abt 2 mths ago?)
i spend quite a lot of $$ on cosmetics, hair care products,
nail polish and body products. but i think its worth th value ^^

its finally the end of this mth.
i think this mth is th toughest mth ever for th whole year so far.
I just hope th next remaining 3 mths would end off 2009 well.
anyway, my weight's dropping so its a gd thing. yay !
i just hope i wont gain extra fats during th hols ><
oh & ive yet to strt training for my running as it was raining yst
& my feet still hurt tdy (skin peeled at my sole and a bit of blistery feeling)
if tmrw th weather's gd, i'll go run (:

its th end eff August. I hope September would turn out better ^^
xuan told me she was attached. & i got shocked..
but im happy for her. aft all, its very rare tht she'll find someone
who is gd enough to attract her attention. hahah.
but at th same time im sad, cos it means we arent les partners anymore ):
awwwww.. ok im kidding abt th les part but i'll miss this gf a lot. hah.
she's still going to be my gf though. lalala~
sometimes i feel lonely too...God, help me fill up this void within.

okay that's all. bye !

Holidays! :D

2009-08-29T04:32:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm soooo happy that the holidays have started! haha.
Thanks those who have been praying for me and th "JIAYOU!" from others.
really appreciate it a lot (:
Since the papers are over I shant talk abt it.

now that the holidays are here...
the 10 things on my list of things to do for the holidays

1. Watch dramas/movies
2. Train running stamina
3. Pack my room
4. Going out with beloved/gfs
5. Finding a new job
6. Overseas for holiday
7. World Mental Health Day
8. Attend Ken's bday chalet
9. Do more QT
10. Visit to the library

Changed my hairstyle and dyed my hair again. whee~
&& Online shopping is my new obsession :]

Hey Mr Boyfriend

2009-08-25T00:20:00.010+08:00

Hey Mr Boyfriend
you got me feeling confused
I dont know what to do about you now

You made me so lost made me so hurt
& left me alone in a pile of dirt.

Mr Boyfriend, if im your girlfriend
prove it with actions cos'
they speak louder than words
Mr Boyfriend, if im your girlfriend
cherish me before
you know its gonna be too late

I see the change in you
I dont even like it
what happened to your heart
where did it fly to

I tell myself its okay not to take it to heart
you didnt change but can I believe you?

Mr Boyfriend, if im your girlfriend
prove it with actions cos'
they speak louder than words
Mr Boyfriend, if im your girlfriend
cherish me before
you know its gonna be too late
before its too late, late late.....

lyrics above is one crazy song my mind came up with. haha.
im getting addicted to online shopping again which is bad.
some blogshops are having sale now and its really v tempting!
Looks like i have a long list of stuffs to buy when i go for my hols.
hopefully the quality of th clothes are gonna be good (:

Okay i wont be blogging much till exams are over.
so stay tuned for my next post.
some pictures uploaded on fb alrdy! :D

ps. stupidass, you're so childish. :p

Tiring day

2009-08-22T23:59:00.004+08:00

21 Aug.
went to SP to study with shalini, rachel and lionel.
had lunch at foodcourt 6 before that...
walked from bus stop to admin block & bus stop to business sch.
wasted a lot of time man. and i was sweating like mad. ha.
it's surprising to find out that rachel was my pri sch classmate! haha.
& Lionel had a comical look which i felt was funny. but i was kinda sad too
because he reminded me of quacky. i miss quacky ):
lionel's smile is almost the same as quacky, & he's only slightly taller than him.
argh nevermind i'll get to see quacky after exams, hopefully ! :D
Dumb2 was in sch but i didnt see him. he said he was at foodcourt 6!
too bad didnt see him around, if nt can disturb him alrdy.
left SP at 4plus, went to wrl to study till nearly closing time.
bought muachee and tutu kueh from pasar malam. bus-ed home.

22 Aug
piano lesson wasnt too gd tdy...
rushed to tampines for cg aft that. Faithfulness.. its really impt.
from tamp, went down to bugis lib. & went mindscafe for dinner.
i didnt really enjoy myself tt much. it felt rather weird but th games made
things much better. my mood wasnt gd so i left earlier.
& that's all for now. camwhored a bit but im nt uploading th pics yet.

Some updates

2009-08-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

redeemed my new pair of lenses already.
Maxi eyes 3-tone ash gray <3
imagine buying one pair itself is $33 bucks. woah.
at least this pair is considered a blessing. haha.

went sch in the morning to return my lib book.
was slping on th bus so i missed my stop, then took th bus 1 loop
so wasted a bit of time. headed to wrl aft tt.
spent 7 hrs+ there tdy, not bad not bad..
the guy who sat beside me said "you also from Ngee Ann?"
chat a few seconds then went back to study again..
on my way home, i took the long winded bus.
felt motion sick, nearly wanted to puke already.
thank God nothing happened on my way home.
im feeling very lethargic now. gnite folks!

Why?

2009-08-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

I feel disappointed by certain people.
but i wont mention their names...
anyway i doubt they will read my blog.

Went bugis to shop a bit just now. bought new pair of jellies!
& i went tracyeinny's sale.. bought a rainbow starry tube dress.
it fits rather nicely. and its only 12 bucks. cheap! (:
bought another pair of black flats from Vincci as my current one spoil.

since this is how you want things to be,
我就让你随心所欲
just do what you like, suit yourself..
you dont give a damn about what i'll think anyway.

Love is in the air

2009-08-13T08:23:00.002+08:00

This is my third time trying to blog this post.
stupid blogger had this problem. arghh.

Recently people are either getting attached or engaged.
Congrats to them and hope they will last long (:

......

Are you interested to run?
Visit http://runsingapore.com for more details :D
am challenging myself to run long dist. hope i can do it!

......

so glad that its study break. i really need this break man.
time to mug and mug. & date with books too..
ever since last sem to this sem...
im still trying to find back th passion for this course.
its not easy but i know He will help me.
& i need more motivation, if not studying wont be productive.

......

bought 2 corset-like tops, a tube dress and a tie-on top...
from a sale at lot1 th other day. costs 10 bucks for all 4.
super cheap right. hahah. th only risk was not being able to try on before buying.
thank goodness i could fit into those tops (they arent free sized ones)haha.
of course holidays will be a good chance to get my body tone.
cant wait to lose those stubborn fats and buy bodycon tops (:

.......

Happy birthday xuan babe! (: love you deep deep.
miss you very muchiiezxz. must faster meet up soon.
xoxo, your girlfriend.

this aint good

2009-08-11T03:47:00.000+08:00

im not having a good feeling abt that.
but i didnt bother to care much as i was busy th past few days.
it really got that out of my mind but it was a temporary effect only.
im really in doubt. i dont know what to expect out of that.

you're not th only one feeling that way. i am too.
you might not be reading this, i didnt meant for you to.
i ask myself just how long more is this going to go on?
without any closure, without any proper ending.
new chapters cant begin when this aint close. so how to move on?
taking a gamble, meeting into risks. not the first time.
will it be th last time? i dont know.
prove your words with actions. speak from your heart.

good luck letty <3 hope you will continue to be strong.
whether you're going back to th past or choosing to look for a present.
may you find someone who will stay true to your heart. (:

5 years down the road, what will i be doing?
10 years down the road, where will I be?
20 years down the road, what have I done?
30 years down the road, what will i achieve?
50 years down the road, who will still be there?

God, i need more boost of optimism.
pls help me.

Happy National Day!

2009-08-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

Just how many people will don the streets in red and white?
For white, there's bound to be many but what about Red?
The only thing i love abt national day is the massive display of fireworks.

7August 2009.
(pls take note that th post before this was 6 aug & nt 7 aug).
i felt tired. really drained out of my energy.
aft spending so long trying to make things right.
no matter how much I did, it just wasnt gd enough.
& when i couldnt take it, i had a bd which lasted for abt an hr.
im really sorry that it woke mum up.
tried v hard to fall asleep and managed to catch abt 3 hrs + of slp.

8 August 2009.
had piano lesson in th morning.
left hse earlier as call time was changed to 2.30pm
but i didnt realise my ez link card wasnt with me till i went up th bus.
pretended to scan th card and alighted.
paid coins when i trsferred to 966.
alighted at Eunos and took cap to expo.
then when i reached expo, no one was there. ._.
checked my phone & realised call time changed to 3.30pm.
so i was freaking early for once. decided to go withdraw $
metup with a few other choir mbrs @ Subway.
Candice wore th same jacket as me! hahah. pics avail. @ FB.
while touching up on makeup before svc, I found my ez link card,
smacked right in th middle of th books in my bag.
which meant i wasted 10 bucks from my hse just to get to expo! arghhh.
why i said wasted? cos i've got train and bus concession. D:
Service was awesome. had a great time towards th end of it.
cried a lot. but i felt stronger and no longer worry much abt tt situation (:
bedok for fellowship. went home aft tht.
Btw, Happy Birthday Quacky, Ting-er, Jiahui & Laura (:

Alternate.

2009-08-07T01:55:00.005+08:00

Here's a poem that doesnt rhyme...
Blades of glass searing through the grass,
Raucous laughter of the I.N.
Ripping of hearts, tearing apart.
Satirical humor that has no end.
What's a turkey without honey.
What's an egghead without precocity.

As I didnt slp last night at all, went to school like a zombie...
headed to bugis with jme aft sch but th shops were closed.
so i went home aft tt. fell asleep on th bus.
& it overshot till near Kranji. took th bus all th way to civic centre.
WRL is a nice place to do research at.
studying there will be great! went home in the evening.
& then it started pouring heavily in the early morning, figuratively.
I'm not very hopeful if the rain would stop. Things are so unpredictable.

come what may, Your strength is all i rely on.
Your grace is sufficient for me.

Thankful.

2009-08-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

okay I havent been blogging for several days.
Main updates: Church anni on Sunday i ended up waking up late so jme & i shared a cab down to SIS.
helped attributes to sell th latest church album. im soooo going to get my hands on one :D
WHY? -support the sales
-Choir mbrs getting discount! its so much more cheaper. LALA~
-the songs are always nice. (:

Plus, im getting complimentary vouchers for the gd cd sales (:
Plus, I can get my new attributes mbrship card w/o paying. awesomeee..

Anyway, church 20th yr anni service was great! <3
th previous anni we had was the 17th year & i rmb making a decision then tht no matter what happens, im never going to leave chc.
this year, i was reminded of the promise i made to God.
Throughout both thanksgiving and celebration service, God's presence was very strong.
I could still feel it even though i nearly dozed off several times due to exhaustion.
20 years down the road, i see myself doing even more for God.
I want to serve as much as I can. be it in church or out of th church.
volunteer more. i guess it will help me destress too. [:

YAH ambassadors meeting next mon! whee~
first time co-operating with them since i missed the induction programme.
main sub committee for volunteer management. hope things will go well as planned! :D

Happy August~

2009-08-01T16:21:00.000+08:00

this year is passing very quickly. left 4 more mths to the end of 2009 :x
im feeling very confused over something. how to not think too much abt it?
sighhh. rd msged me last night was stumped by th contents of th msg. so i didnt reply.
nearly couldnt focus during FOP as th sms was stuck in my head.
but FOP was still gd somehow. esp th sermon abt worriness. Bob fitt's voice is good.
supper with jme and tiong last night aft FOP. cabbed hm.

piano lesson in th morning. changed timing so cher was a diff one.
she's much younger so her experience shld be lesser than Ms Chan's
anyway i think i might learn up till L3 and stop aft tt.
shall see how L1 goes. hopefully by end of this mth/next cn complete L1.

okay. this is a boring saturday.
byeee.

hmimtywbkwyhpopnmo10s.

when i needed you..

2009-07-31T01:08:00.003+08:00

im stuck at question 4 :\ hahah.
had a breakdown earlier on at night. but i shld be fine now.
botak is out earlier for this week! 3 days to chat more b4 gg in again.
botak is really nt gd at consoling ppl. only can say omg and dont cry.
but not bad. i will make him improve in his consoling skills. :D

Pastor's daily devotions are really inspiring. I feel as if my Faith increases
each time i read through the daily devotion thing.
plus, there are email notifications of his devotion so its very convenient and accessible!

I cant wait for the weekends to come. FOP!
okay. back to my assignment if not i wont be slping tonight.

Take a break, have a subway cookie! :D

i dont feel that insecure now. thanks botak. (L)

I will not forget

2009-07-30T14:16:00.001+08:00

last night was my last day working at EB. my first F&B job.
i rmb making Roslee angry, getting a deep cut on my finger because of a broken saucer, having a glass cup explode in front of me, pouring honey into the drink when i shldnt etc. all those silly mistakes.. haha :D
last night was the slackest night ever. hardly any customers so i could use my laptop for a while. lala~
got to eat a bit of beef steak, honey mustard chicken, potato wedges & nuggets prepared by the kitchen,
self-scooped several New Zealand natural ice cream flavors, scarlet frost made by Charmaine,
gave my colleagues gummy candies to eat, washed the dishes for the last time ever.
& oh yes, my sec sch senior Zeid is working at EB too. only managed to see him & talk to him on my last day of work..
which is kinda pity. I didnt see Jezyl yesterday too. Thank goodness Roslee wasnt around. hahah.
took photos with pretty Charmain and handsome Red dragon. he nearly cried while we took the photos luh.
so end up the pics didnt turn out tt nice. my smile was a lil forced too. hah. :\
im one of the youngest crew member there. but they are really nice and patient. (:
i will definitely miss th place cos i learnt a lot from them just within 3 mths. cashiering, serving, making dessert, doing opening and closing. blahblahs. sometimes i hate to work there. but now if i were to go back there to work, i will love it more.
if the pay was higher, i would stay on. & if the boss was more generous, if roslee was a better manager... oh well~
i will still go back there to visit once in a while. :D

Jme, we must go study tgt soon! i miss your spasticism. D:
& i miss ____ too. as always.
FOP! i hope lesson ends early tmrw so tht I can go!

Some proper updates

2009-07-28T01:17:00.000+08:00

Ever since i started blogging again after i recovered,
i realised its been getting more crappish.
9am lessons arent th best timing classes to have.
& to start th week, it has to be on mondays and tuesdays.
thank goodness there's a few more weeks left before sem break.
timetable this sem can just kill me, literally.
& 3 hour breaks are really ~~awesome~~redundant.
i rather they cut us some slack by reducing break time
or make our lessons start later. like at 1pm or something.
yea, in your dreams jul, in your dreams.
sweet choco candy sugared dreams. *poof*

okay. enough of the melodramatic.
time to be serious..im quitting tomorrow, wed.
still havent thought of what to buy for my colleagues.
i will definitely miss jezyl th most, red dragon & cindy next.
on sunday night, Sun told me "wa you bluff me lor..say you will work very long but now you want to quit already..."
i felt kinda guilty luhs. aftall, i've grown attached to this place aft working for th past 3 mths.
& th ppl are really nice (except Roxy aka Roslee who can be a bitch at times) to work with.
im scared i will cry when i say goodbye to them tmrw.
i must take a pic with red dragon and jezyl! and maybe Sun and Gris.
too bad Soon Leng and Sze Hong's gone alrdy. sighhhh.

ok. its 1.30am. time to sleep.
gnite! :)

Setting free

2009-07-26T01:21:00.002+08:00

7-8 mths yet no final outcome has been decided.
Like Letty, im giving up. Dyy thinks i shld too.
for th past 5 mths, ive been struggling.
but now.. its time to step into a new horizon...
time is always th healing factor yet once again.
who doesnt wish to go back to th gd old times?
i wish we could rewind back to last yr again but its not possible.
what's not meant to be should be set free;

on a brighter note, i went to find shuni @ her work place.
she treated me to chocolate ice shavings plus banana. nice! :D
went to amk aft tt to find cindy and th rest at kbox.
had beef bowl for dinner @ th hawker centre.
watched them play pool, chatted a bit & went hm arnd 11+

th end.

On the road to recovery

2009-07-25T00:52:00.004+08:00

Thursday slept for nearly the whole day.
My fever went up to as high as 39.9 deg.
th only thing i drank and ate th whole day was...
plain water, chrysanthemum tea, medicine and an apple.

Went sch for project on fri.
headed to town for dinner aftmath, followed by starbucks.
headed home with dyy on th train aft tt.
perhaps if tub's personality wasnt tt bad, tub would've a bf.
oh well, its not amazing how tub doesnt have one.
how idiosyncratic tub can be. [inserts a gazillion laughter]

thanks those who showed concern. (:
love you guys lots <3

I'm weak

2009-07-22T14:44:00.004+08:00

I realise that I've been getting sick quite easily this semester.
3 days of MC previously and 2 days of MC for tdy and tmrw.
sore throat, cough, breathing difficulties, blockednose etc.
If I get better, will be able to go back to school tmrw. french~
Went to see the doctor just now & was given 4 medicines.
first time i've ever been given so much in a consultation :s
Naiimah was having flu yesterday; more than 2 packets of tissue & it wasnt enough.
I hope she's feeling better tdy. (:

Fish porridge for lunch. Didnt finish it.
th porridge was so watery. yucks. lol. gg to slp soon after medicine. cya!

i feel like giving up already. sigh.
why is it so hard to talk properly?
i guess im dispensable? well. have your way then, i cant be bothered to argue with you anymore .

2009-07-16T02:18:00.003+08:00

Blog undergoing revamp!
meanwhile, there wont be any posts.

ps. I love ting & shuni :D

drop it like its hawtttttt

2009-07-15T15:05:00.004+08:00

-previous post deleted-
after all, it was only in a fit of anger tt i said tt.
& angry ppl wont know what crap/shit they are talking abt. [well at least it happens for me]
since i have to do what i have to do, i'll just do it and not complain abt it alrdy.
otherwise i will be wasting even more time.
& well yea, im sry for blogging what i blogged in my previous post.
& yes, i know im at fault ):

work was busy and hectic today.
& i dreamt abt something wonderful. how i wished it really happened. hah.

ps. thanks Marvin kor for telling me what th mistake was.

Awesome.

2009-07-14T12:35:00.005+08:00

E-learning today and tomorrow. awesome (:
had a good rest last night. slept at 12+am. freaking early for once,
like after so long. [HAHAHA]
meeting babe & darling l8r @ tampines. peektures~

these days, i'm starting to feel fattttt again D:
my face is getting chubbier once more [evidence from pictures I took with dumb2]
gotta cut down on what I eat and watch my intake. greentea diet. here i come~
although I'm worried about ___ I know tht God will protect & watch over so it'll be safe.
somehow, thinking abt the bad things others've said abt th training makes me lose my appetite.
i think i'll be able to slim down faster this way too. HAHAHA.

okay. I'm going to shower & head out now.
Update again soon. <3

Missing. missing. missing.

2009-07-13T22:34:00.005+08:00

Please dont leave me

Da da da dada da da da
Da da da da da,
I don't know if I can yell any louder,

How many times have I kicked you out of here?

Or said something insulting?

Da da da da da
I can be so mean when I wanna be,

I am capable of really anything,

I could cut you into pieces,

But my heart is, broken.

Da da da da da
Please don't leave me [x2]

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious,

What is it with you that makes me act like this,

I've never been this nasty,

Can't you tell that this is just a contest?

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,

But baby I don't mean it, I mean it, I promise

Da da da da da
Please don't leave me [x2]

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
I forgot to say out loud,

How beautiful you really are to me,

I can't be without,

You're my perfect little punching bag,

And I need you, I'm sorry.

Da da da dada da da da
Da da da da da
Please, please don't leave me

Time, and more time.

2009-07-13T12:48:00.002+08:00

fatigue. i need more rest. lols.
im glad that stats report is over. phew.
soon, its time to work on a couple more assignments before its exams!
gonna start mugging real soon cos apparently strting two wks before exams aint enough for an STM person like me :s
i dont feel like working today. seriously damn shagged! D:
luckily gris is able to replace me for tdy. omg. i cnt imagine wat will happen if i make anymore stupid mistakes again. it has happened several times becos i was simply too tired to work.
will sleep more when i get home! hoho.

havent been watching K.O3 for weeks. its time to catch up with the show. woohoo.
hahaa. im in a random mode now. cos of greentea~
saw some nice things on taobao spree, thinking of buying the hello kitty stuffs. its tempting!

meeting beloveds soon (: quacky, xuan, darling, jen, heidi.
miss you guys truckloads D:

10 July.

2009-07-10T11:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOH ZHEN XIANG! :D
bought him a persent but idk if he likes it.
oh well nvm. at least i know he'll keep it ^^

Ed's enlistment's tdy. I'm worried that th training will be tough for him.
was surprised when he told me he's gg directly to PR Camp, no bmt.
life as a commando sure wont be easy. :x
i miss his hair. bet he'll look funny when he's botak. haha.
& he's going to be even darker now! =\(as if he isnt dark enough. omg im going to be lighter than him D:)

i've got a test for workic. didnt study much.
hopefully can get a decent pass. hah.
CCA compulsary briefing tonight, im skipping tt. :s
combined cg tonight woohoo~ can see my loves. (:
overnight study at mac. anyone? (:

A random blog post

2009-07-09T02:07:00.003+08:00

im sad ): because Quacky has changed.
he doesnt study much, plays game, clubs, drinks, and smoke.
he wasnt tt hardcore in th past. ):
im like scolding him on msn now la. why did this happen to my twin? D:

JP is Hellbent on Heaven .KeZia. TIME TO DIE BITCHES! and dont be a pussy about it. =) BURY THE HATCHET! says:
*...
*NO LAH
*as in
*now got alot of problems
*LOl
*okay we musttt go out soon
*then i can tell you about all the little adventures i've been having
*in school
*HAHA
*2nd year is SO MUCH MORE FUN I TELL YOU
♥Julia says:
*YEA LA.
*YOU AND YOUR STUPID ANTICS
he still can smile after saying this. lol. im going to force him to study soon. RAWR.

stupidass didnt know what to do for his celebration this yr
so i gave him some ideas. & yea its fun time baby!
i hope it wont be too awkward with his other friends arnd.
& i told him i lost th ___ he gave me, he cute la.
nvr scold me but asked if i wanted another one. HAHAH. =\
i hope ray can come. its been a long time since i last saw him too!

Esther has gone off to Brisbane to study.
aft she checked in, then i cried. hope she didnt see. :x
& yea i spend fcking 30 bucks to cab frm clementi to airport.
how awesome. first time break record. i rather buy clothes from blogshops.
zzz.

im quitting work soon. or maybe find another job nearer to my hse.
so tt i wont have to travel tt much.
plus i need to study for exams real soon.
aft attending course preview tdy, im sort of motivated to work towards tt!
hope i can get over this sem quick..

im nt gg to have enough slp tonight..
IS class frm 8-12. & i still need to do readings for stats report.
tmrw, its full gear whole day.

E. i will miss you too.
& no i wont run away.
i'll always be here, as a friend.
& pls dont be a gay. cos i dont want you to. lols.
yea. we shld give each other time.
i think others deserve a chance too.

sick. & really tired.

2009-07-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

i almost broke down again just now. feel so stressed over certain issues. & th fact tt i've been sick since thurs up to today, monday which is like 4 days (?!) isnt helping I havent fell sick for a consecutive 4 days before. this is the longest ever. I think its because im so effing stressed. ):
it's not easy- running nose, headache, throat inflammation. plus those dreaded assignments.

I just hope tt th people around me can be more understanding.

I will truly deeply appreciate it. tyvm..

God, pls give me more strength.
Without You, it's going to be impossible to get things done.
things just doesnt seem to get any better now, can it?

& now, im at the crossroads again.. wondering which path to take.
if there's a choice. I would go the middle of th two paths. but. =\
Last time, i regretted choosing the X path instead of the Z path.
Now, It's the W path or the N path. but i wont think too much into tt.

Stupidass's bdae is this fri. & so is Ed's enlistment day.
10july. what a nice no.

Happy July! :D

2009-07-01T12:21:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to blog so often anymore..perhaps twice a week?

It's a brand new mth. learn to embrace it everyone.

okay that's all i have for now. bye!

will upload pics and change blogskin real soon...
[though idk when]

to Xx: there's a reason for everything so perhaps God wants you to shine for him in SIM. (:
to grace: thanks xiaomei! meet up with you to study soon okay (:

see things in a diff. light

2009-06-30T02:01:00.003+08:00

Mon was a tiring day for me.
Aft sch, slept for an hr before gg for work.
Finally got my cheque. th $ is pathetic but at least ive gt some cash on hand.
can finally get yumei's belated bdae pressie and some other stuffs soon.
Claire's last day of work tdy. nearly cried when i heard tt she's quitting.
will definitely miss her. D:
& i was kinda emo at work tdy, thinking abt sch work etc.
I guess the only thing i look forward to is choir pract tmrw.
& th thing tt cheered me up tdy was knowing tt my speech comm grades turned out well.
Im really surprised tt she marks so leniently, even for the reflections abt other culture.

Edwin made me cry just now because he told me tt he's ____
wei jun, i just cant accept tt fact. you know wat im talking abt ):
& 10 more days before he becomes a botak.. hw fast time flies.

nostalgia

2009-06-29T13:35:00.003+08:00

When I saw you just now, I felt happy again.
But a part of me felt sad too.
how i wish. we could be like how we once were.. but.

3 hours break. im lethargic but didnt sleep.
Daryl was supposed to give me a morning call =\
luckily i was able to get up aft my alarm rang.
if not, i would probably have slept till now. lols.

God, I need supernatural strength.
I pray that you will help me to finish my assignments on time.

Extend our holidays please

2009-06-28T22:05:00.001+08:00

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/439058/1/.html

599 cases in SG.
When are they going to close down all the schools? when it reaches a thousand?

Over. or not.

2009-06-27T03:43:00.003+08:00

SOS on thurs night was great. had a wonderful time.
I love You more than anything ever.
& I wanna be committed to serving you. for th rest of my life.

Went out with yaya on friday. really missed spending time with her &
was really glad tt we managed to meet up. accompanied her to shop.
walked around quite a lot tdy. haha. sort of an exercise yea?
she's one of the best buddies i'll ever have in church. nt th same cg but yet
we're still able to talk like usual. no awkwardness whatsoever. how nice (:

thanks wilson, cindy, esther and kian loong for chatting with me and consoling me.
im not emo le. and yes, i will be strong. I will learn to love myself more
& learn to love again. i wont be afraid of loving in future.

Survivor, fire up!

2009-06-25T14:39:00.003+08:00

im back from camp. & i think i might be sick...
the camp was fun. lots of games. & wore the wrong slippers aft one of the beach games =\
loved the encounter night and finale night sessions.
i could feel God's love very strongly and tears started flowing.
His love, is more than enough for me. & it's His love that keeps me going on.
He spoke to me by reminding me of certain problems tt im experiencing atm and i know what im going to do abt it. going to trust in Him to fulfill my dreams! ((:

first night, a few of us stayed up late to chat abt ghost stories.
then we kinda freaked out a bit. & then at 3am, they woke us up to play night games.
some games were funny. lol.
slept for like a few hours then woke up the next day.
had morning devotion with Gloria's cg. and tribe performance prep.
my grp decided to do [[St. John's got talent]].
1st talent: Wonderboys. they did a sexaye dance :D
2nd talent: Triple Js. we sang Rainie Yang's Ai Mei. zao xia purposely.
3rd talent: Gordon and another guy did a funny dance.
4th talent: Bryan played guitar and sang wonderwall.
5th talent: Another guy sang twinkle twinkle little star.
blah. had supper with N457 people and slept aft tt.
im kinda sick of cup noodles now, after the camp :x
but still, it was a wonderful experience. (:

thanks Edwin.. & thanks Daryl for your msg.
thanks DL for your concern (:

Love, its amazing

2009-06-23T02:00:00.002+08:00

sometimes when you think you're over that person, you're not. even trying to block him or her out of your life, it aint working.
somehow its amazing tt you can still love someone even though they have disappointed you before, made you angry, stabbed you in your heart. i guess its almost the same as parental love for a child. the depth of love, leaves me feeling amazed.

That jerk, idk what to say abt him. he seems serious with her now. but i really hope he isnt joking abt her. she will be freaking heart broken if it happens. I pray that you will change. Not for others but for yourself.

okay. i need to go pack my bag for camp. St John's Island. here i come~~~
drop me an sms if its urgent alright.(:

to xiaomei: Thank you. (:

missing people

2009-06-22T02:38:00.003+08:00

i think i am dumb.
because i cut my finger tdy.

it kept bleeding non stop for quite long.
affected my performance at work too.
Cindy and Jezyl helped me to bandage my thumb, using serviette, scotch tape, plaster and masking tape. haa. Jezyl's bf from France came to visit her. so sweet la the two of them.
red dragon came tdy. me happy! cos i thought he left sg alrdy.. & he gave us watermelons. really juicy ones. haha. i still feel shy talking to him though.

damn tired. after working for 11 hours. =x
camp tomorrow! im still not prepared. hahaha.
but its kinda exciting. going St. John's Island for 3 days.
will miss my darlings.

quacky talked to me on FB. i miss him. ):
its been so freaking long since we last met.
i hope he wont be like stupidass and cant recognise me.
my heart will break.
ok. enough drama. gnite ppl!
i mean gd morning. :D

Profanities post

2009-06-19T02:23:00.002+08:00

The reason why I havent been blogging recently is because...I've been trying to control my anger over some stuffs. & i cant control it anymore... this post is gg to have vulgarities. if you cant stand it, pls exit from my blog.

Firstly, you're a hongster. I seriously cant stand you. the way you behave in front of my gf disgusts me a lot. i hate the way you are. i wish you can F off from both our lives. dont think you can harm her you asshole. dont be a MF la. you're such a cb kia. you think i dont know what you say to her? then you are wrong, jerk. what didi told me abt you was right. i cant trust you anymore dude. & you always call me late at night, causing my dad and bro to be irritated with me, when i tell you i cnt talk, you said im just giving you excuses cos i dont wanna talk to you. f you. use your brains to think properly. call me at 1am, another time at 3am. F you man. wth la.
& if you think you can play around with both me and her, you are WRONG. you might end up being played instead. nb. dont test my limits ok. shit you to the max. so what if you have money, you're rich, live in pte ppty? i dont give a damn. & i rather stick to my job than be paid to be ur gf dumbass. you cnt buy love using money. you're the dumbest idiot ive ever seen. grow up pls.

Next, xxxx is such a cheebong. what a "good" boss you are. i still havent gotten my pay since April till now. ARGHHHHH. HELLO ITS GSSSSSSSSSSS damn you.

Lastly, there's a side of me that they will never see. Since they love to treat people like this.

sheer exhaustion

2009-06-15T03:05:00.002+08:00

I've got loads of pictures to upload! but..but im lazy to do so.
& nt really in th right mood to upload either =x

Saturday was celebrity weekend at church.
Who turned up? Ms Indonesia, DJ Danny Yeo, Jacelyn Tay, Molucca, Ocean [ou de yang], Milk the ex-Energy member, FIR, F4 Vanness, 2 beauty pageant members etc.
Rushed off to AH Chalet after that. walked to the underpass was creepy.
super ulu and no one there...so i was afraid. reached the chalet, ate a bit, played some games, played bridge, read magazine, sms, walk to mac, took cab [thanks G (:] and took 67 from Bedok all the way to The Linear, then transferred to 970. walked home.
ate breakfast. conked out at 8.10am. slept all the way till 1+pm.
used com. went for work. reached late. super busy. made mistakes cos brain not working well.
aft work. took bus to bpp. went mac order takeaway. walked home. surf net.

meeting jack russell in the noon. hope he doesnt try to do anything funny.
(if he pinches my cheeks tmrw i will kick his ___ )
piano lesson at night. will change blogskin tmrw when i come home.

stop saying sorry. when it cant change anything that has already happened.
i hope you will be a more sensible person and change for the sake of your friends.
second chances? gave you once already. perhaps you didnt realise it.
if you have a headache thinking abt what you can do to salvage things, please go see a doctor.
perhaps not thinking will be good for you. since i dont expect anything from you now.

Real, or fake?

2009-06-13T04:41:00.003+08:00

recently ive been having dreams. & its weird .x

stupid ass chatted with me on msn last night.
he called me a stupid dodo chocolate ass ball ):
somehow i dont know why, he's the only person that makes me laugh and scold him at the same time. anyway, I kind of miss arguing with him. haha.

served for SOS today. dumb me forgot that im supposed to wear jeans as we'll all be seating on the stage. ._.
I've not been Spiritually good this week.
Looks like its time to head back to the carpark to pray.
been a long time since i last fasted too. If Pst can do it for 21 days continuously,
what is 1 day of fasting?

alright im pretty tired now. slping soon.
AH appreciation chalet l8r after svc. im staying overnight [most probably]
can see G too. heehee. x)

okay bye!

the best eye candy

2009-06-11T22:11:00.002+08:00

worked yesterday. Roxy wasnt around so i couldnt get my pay.
& he told me that i can have my pay when i worked. zzz.
i was trying hard not to feel paiseh when i talked to red dragon yst.
can see that he was going to um chio. make me control my laughter even more.

was on facebook just now. browsed through my eye candy's photo.
& i kinda felt sad. cos i missed the times when i was working at civic centre.
oh man. kicking his chair, making fun of him, playing bingo etc.
i even had a vision of me and him......... okay. i shldnt think abt it.
well... if it's God's will, why not? too bad he aint in chc now.
hope he's doing fine back at his father's church ^^
you're the best eye candy ive ever had, ETJW. & i dont think there's going to be other eye candies who are like you.

hot weather

2009-06-11T18:19:00.001+08:00

its so freaking hot. the whole day. global warming. urgh.

Dont let tomorrow bring you down
put a smile instead of a frown
Wherever you go know in your heart
that you're not alone right from the start
when its the right time the right one will come
so dont lose heart, dont give up
in the search for the right one

ps. you can never get rid of hypocrites. that's why they are forever called hypocrites. for having several faces. just f off. [:

Motivation

2009-06-09T15:00:00.001+08:00

I need motivation to study. help me! it seems as if i cant absorb at all .x There’s a renovation going upstairs above my flat. Looks like I really have to go school to study .x distractions all around. & the weather is so hot! Have a sudden craving for macaroons. am so getting them during the holidays! okay. im seriously bored. & this post is schedule to be published at 3pm this noon.the time now is 11.14am. goodbye <3

Dont test my patience

2009-06-07T18:38:00.002+08:00

im pissed off by some people.
if got things to say, just say. what for keep inside of you.
& if it is concerning me, you should tell. i hate it when wanna say
yet end up say nvm la i keep to myself can le. its really ANNOYING.

ok nth much.

just tt im kinda disgusted with some ppl's behavior.

okay. so i went to meet 2 blogshop owners tdy to collect my clothes.
2 of the outfits were disappointing but the rest were alright. lol.
now i got my hiphop dance pants. maybe wait towards EOY then join dance at N.S.
woohoo~ groove it baby~
Felt a bit tired during svc. but Rev. Mary Alice is really great.
when she was praying, i started tearing. cos i could sense a heavy burden to do humanitarian work. it suddenly struck upon me that i can become a missionary next time. hee.
lot 1 aft svc and home-ed aft meeting the 2nd blogshop owner!

that's all! bye~
so scandalous. <3

Should I be happy or sad?

2009-06-06T22:27:00.003+08:00

Last night, i was emotional over something.
thanks DL for trying to cheer me up. (:
slept early last night..around 2plus.
couldnt wake up in time for PM this morning.
slept all the way till nearly 2pm. lols.
ate brunch. then went out with mum and dad to bpp for tea.
Guardian having sales at floor area so i bought 2 face masks and lip conditioner.
ate yam paste and some other food. then went NTUC.
whenever im out with them at NTUC, we'll always buy a lot of stuff. wahahaha.
bacardi, marigold aloe vera yoghurt, marigold peach jelly, tofu, hotdogs, popcorn chicken,
bah kut teh noodles, a packet of 9 cup noodles, 8 Days Magazine (Sun's on it), japanese green tea (bottle), japanese greentea (sachet), jelly crystals-raspberry and lime flavor.
neighbour gave us 7-8 durians when we were back. hohoho. eat dao shiok! (:

idk if i shld be happy or sad.
sadly, i dont need a good friend like you.
happily, at least im glad ive got other friends ard.
& i hope tt u will treat your other friends better.
one less friend like me wont hurt you im sure.
thanks for reading my blog all these while.

proper updates

2009-06-05T19:06:00.003+08:00

Ok I decided to delete the previous post..
cos it sounded bad. & i dont want tt person to hantam me =\
save the person's superego. hahaha. :x

It feels so gd to complete the assignment!
ohgosh. i was up since 1am last night. haha.
& as usual chatted with my beloved ones till quite late.
decided to go offline cos really distracted. BOO. lol.
then went sch in the morning.
chiong essay aft tt again. really crapped my way through.
but i think its quite alright though i crap (:

okay. got a lot to talk abt actually...
last monday, met jiawen! we ate at the jap restnt 1st floor of Marina.
then i saw my eyecandy's brother was one of the waiters. lol.
but he dunno me so i didnt say hello.
& everytime im with jiawen, we both end up doing stupid stuffs.
tt day we use mastercard to pay, then they give us 6 pieces of sashimi free.
& both of us dont eat sashimi ! so we tried to cook it =x
i poured hot water over it but nt hot enough to cook
so when jiawen's meal came first, then we cooked the sashimi inside the soup.
it became cooked salmon. so tasted nicer. haha.
aft dinner then we walked around. wanted to go MOF for greentea with redbean.
but they closing le. so we went Pasta de Waraku for greentea plus some other stuff.
its cheaper than MOF but i still prefer MOF de dessert.
th Waraku staff were a bit nt happy tt we ate there. cos they wanted to close early i think?
aiya. got business why dont want. can earn extra 10 bucks leh. ROFL.
ok im crapping again. haha sorry been like that these few days. ^^
last fri was the first SOS bs with Pst Kong. was serving so didnt manage to meet up with sec sch friends! miss them loads. ):
& then sat was emerge. sun didnt go as planned. =\
and blahblahblahblahblah.

2009-06-03T16:45:00.003+08:00

Short Quiz.

What are you doing now: blogging.
What are you doing later: work.
What are you thinking about now: If I will end up sleeping on the bus later :\

Last call: piano school
Last text message: Daryl [:
Last person you saw: My mum (:

Person you miss: girlfriends :D
Person you like: a lot of people. im friendly ^^
Person you dislike: people who love beaching

Time now: 4.54pm. k need to go prepare for work. bye peeps (:

School life

2009-06-03T02:26:00.002+08:00

had Work IC presentation tdy.
Jy's group was funny ok. they presented on commercial sex workers then demo one of the activities they can conduct for those sex workers- using a banana as you-know-what and put the condom over it. & the whole class started laughing.
slept most of the time during personality lecture. i feel so bad for slping in classes these days.
Thanks to a pineapple. make me slp late! haha. jking. but he poor thing la. slept 4 hrs only [i dont know what he was doing aft i went to slp]. gave him a "morning call" around 12plus and he sounded like he still in lala land can. boo. LOL.

choir practise was fun tdy. Especially the tongue twisters!
oh yea. i know my blog doesnt have pictures. will upload when im more free
[haha. im like always saying that :x]
ok bye!

jul, the zombie.

E-learning.

2009-05-31T14:59:00.004+08:00

E-learning week...isnt as enjoyable as how it used to be.
I rather attend lessons actually..
Spend quite a lot of time on sgc this week again..
& somehow i enjoy talking to some people...Like Dyy for girl's talk & Daryl who tries to cheer me up. we were talking about teletubbies at like 3 or 4am in the morning. LOL. its always his fault and some others that i end up sleeping late. cos we chat and chat non stop. haha. but me love them laaa. (:
There's also certain people who freak me out because of the way they behaved too. I dont really wish to explain further. LOL.
How I wish I can help D, after hearing the story. But it seems kinda impossible to do so. Though its possible to help. I just need more time.. pls God, give me revelation. haha.

I'm spending my whole afternoon trying to do some E-learning work.
WorkIC is really a killer. I bet i'm not the only one ranting about it. (:
okay whatever. should start to pia on work already.
PS tonight! hohoho.

Busy as a bee

2009-05-31T01:59:00.002+08:00

Update on sat:

slept for 2hrs+ before waking up to go for AH booster training session at HPB.
saw G tdy. he was looking good. first time I heard his voice so clearly..& it sounded nice. ^^
left around 1 plus for choir. Bel rearranged me to stand on the first row. Was a bit nervous because the black bracelet i was wearing nearly gave way when we were clapping during praise.
so before the last praise song I quickly removed it and put it into my pocket.
Emerge is great. Hope they can have more emerge next time! :D
Train down to bugis. Bought falsies and did eyebrow trimming.
Ate curry puff and honey greentea for dinner [also my lunch].
took bus home. on the bus, almost wanted to emo again but i forced myself to sleep. haha.

sunday, im gg for piano lesson early in the morning, then rush down to jw for choir again.
noon most probably doing school work and then evening will be the Rocking without Smoking.
I'm not helping out but going down to show my support. Heard there's a limited edition ring and it looks nice so i wanna get my hands on one! :D

Weekend! (:

2009-05-29T13:58:00.003+08:00

Events for the weekend:

-Songs of Solomon at expo. will be serving..
-Emerge @ JW S1. will be serving..
-Rockin' Without Smoking @ Plaza Sing. 29 may to 31 may 2009.
there's loads of activities:
(Anti-smoking) Hip Hop Dance Competition Prelims (Sat) and Finals (Sun)
Campus Rapping Competition
Guitar Hero Competition
Felicia Chin and Elvin Ng would be coming down on one of the days. not gonna tell you what time though. haha. Hint: just come in the evening alright! (:
-Emerge @ JW S4. will be serving..

Okay. I think the weekends is really packed. & ive still got loads more to do. arghh.

sometimes i feel like dropping this friendship.
i dont see any effort from the other person.
i did try but if you dont choose to respond, is it my fault?
ever since sch started you've changed..
you complain more than you're ever thankful.
it feels so awkward whenever i see you now..
like i dont know what to expect.
i really miss the good old days yet i know it may not return ever again.
p.s. I'm not referring to any HMS students.

Hypocrisy in the air.

2009-05-27T20:47:00.004+08:00

oh, the irony. look at what's happening these days.
there's not much left to say, like always.
it never fails to amaze me- the double mindedness. [:
no, maybe its tripleminded or quadrupletminded.
whatever it is, its never single minded.
yet when alone, i see no backbone.
there's always conspiracy in the mind.

new lyrics. just a few lines (:

baby couldnt you see
its over just like that
love aint easy you know it too
if your heart aint true

i cried because i know i'll never see you again.
i cant bring myself to even if i've a chance
because the hurt is something i can never forget.
you helped me to get over the past & that's something I have to thank you for.
Now, its you im trying to forget- that i once did love you before. (:
honey might taste differently after a period of time.. perhaps that's the change in you.
thank you baby, i love you.. in a different way now.

Suddenly feel like serving more. lols. Should I go for BV auditions? ive got 3more days to decide.

Ups and downs

2009-05-26T18:43:00.003+08:00

I've been emo since sunday. I dont know why but i hate myself sometimes for having these thoughts. Thinking constantly about the same thing over and over again and crying after that is really exhausting. tried to stop myself from thinking so much but seems as if it wont work anymore.

Yesterday, I didnt go for health psy lecture because I got it mxed up with personality lecture's timing on tuesdays. & yesterday, there was supposed to be a consultation with Mr Tan for stats at the HMS office. M smsed me 7 plus am in the morning, when i was still asleep. for goodness sake, you should have sms people like the night before or something, & you even said its compulsary. so isit going to be my fault for not waking up at 6am so that I can see your msg at 7+ am huh? Pls be more considerate for others. and..i hate irresponsible pplwho dont bother to reply msg when i ask abt what Mr. Tan had said for the consultation- assume that she went for it. abcdefg!

sorry for complaining..but my monthly aunt came to visit me. so i thought i'll just rant out things here.

One life, live it out!

2009-05-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

Approx 12am. Fun but tiring day today! [Ps. blogging abt. Saturday].
Woke up around 8 plus, took bus to YWCA Fort Canning Lodge for Youth Against Tobacco (YAT) Workshop. Saw Shu hui there! So I sat together with she and her friend, Asyqin (nt sure if its the correct spelling). There were lots of interactive activities & it was really fun.
Lunch was buffet! :D The brownie was so popular that when I wanted to take 2nd round of brownie, everything was gone already. Fish was nice..served with mango sauce. ((:
Took bus down to Tamp. Mall for the Be Fab and Smoke Free fashion event. There were several booth there. Went to the tattoo booth and hair extension one. :D
Fashion event was really cool! Cute models, especially two that really got my attention. HEEHEE. hoho. angmoh kind yea? I found the female Scandinavian model cute too.
will upload pics. took a lot. and Asyqin took loads too. her image quality much better so Im going to kope from her. LALA~
I'm deleting unknowns off facebook cos i realise I approve friend request too easily already.

ok that's all. serving at S4 later.. going to try out the new makeup i bought. (:

blogging time!

2009-05-23T03:17:00.003+08:00

Havent been updating yet for this week. So I'll do a fast one...
Only 1 tutorial lesson (stats) and IS lesson.
been going to a forum very often these days, so much so that I became a top poster. LOL.
& then there was work. Pretty happy Roxy wasnt around on wed night so I was able to use the laptop. Chatted with Cindy and Red dragon. first time talked to red dragon so long. haha. :D
Online shopping is really a disaster. I cant seem to be able to control my finances well.
Still waiting for my pay cheque next month! Moolahs come to me please~
I might not be going for BV auditions yet.. perhaps when I feel my singing is good enough then I will go for it. more confidence bahs.
Did a few more facebook quizzes- Nick and Marcus.
Scored 16% for Nick. Felt so bad. (oops). His questions were wts man.
Scored 40+% for Marcus. When he did mine, he said if he didnt change his answers, he would have scored better. When I did his quiz, same thing happened to me! if I didnt change 4 answers, could have gotten much higher..like 9/12 already. Oh man! Sorry Marcus too. :x
For my facebook quiz, the highest score is 62%. haha. is it that hard to get 100% lols.
Nick and Ah gong,- I hardly see them these days but they managed to "top" my quiz so far.
I really surprised! Cant believe. omgggggggg. hahaha.

Okay that's all. short? yea. bye!

Mad over shoes?

2009-05-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

What do you think of all these shoes?

cg on fri. I hate it when ppl arent sure of the tempo of new songs but still sing loudly. not only does it disrupt the song but cause me to lose my tempo otherwise the song would have gone smoothly. I felt it could be much better next time round. Jme says my singing has improved. Yay! haha. went SG Flyer to Love the world soul rock bar to watch Sherlyn perform.

sat, served at jw. reached there late but nth serious happened. Toro from Energy performed and he ran around the entire floor area so managed to touch his hand as choir members were seated on the ground. haha. I dont like his hair though. shuttle bus to expo for Dr. Kim's sermon. Pastor Kong reached even faster than the bus did, & he left jw later than the bus. lol. aft svc, had some food before gg ahma's hse for dinner (belated mother's day celebration for her) On my way home, I was so tired that I ended up sleeping. felt damn paiseh when i woke up cos I realised all along I was sleeping on the shoulder of a guy seated beside me. he didnt say anything though. :s

sun. work. Break record tdy. Roxy scolded the f word twice. haha. red dragon thought R was arguing with someone but when he stepped out of the kitchen, saw no one except R. Made a stupid mistake tdy. no wonder R got angry at me. but its my first time setting up buffet so I not sure. zzz. & i burnt my hand while using lighter to light up bdae candles.

aft the function was over and finish clearing, R was in a better mood. he strted singing and "dancing". omg totally diff from the f-ed up time. he even apologised for "hurting" my feelings. haha. Like I care -.- but was kinda happy tt he complimented me on my quick washing.

he even asked if i wanted to extend work shift till 11pm. first time he asked! but i was getting tired so got to go off at 6pm. Hopefully can extend next time when im not so tired :D

Went O2 skin as there was sales. cheap stuff! bought 4 eyeshadows at 1.90 each, 3 bottles of Nail polish @ 0.90 each, a blusher at 20% off, a small bottle of perfume at 1.90. got the O2 membership with min $20 spending so aft member's discount etc, I only paid $12.90! :DDDDD

cheap right? haha. ok im trying to shorten my posts.

tt's all for now. bye!

Personality test!

2009-05-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/jungiantypestest.html
Enter the link to do this test. Check for the personalities below to see which is yours. (:
source is abstracted from http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/jung.html

The test has four scales.
Extroversion - Introversion (E-I) is the most important.
Test researchers have found that about 75 % of the population is extroverted.

The next one is Sensing - Intuiting (S-N) with about 75 % of the population sensing.

The next is Thinking - Feeling (T-F). Researchers have found that two-thirds of men are thinkers, while two-thirds of women are feelers.
This might seem like stereotyping, but keep in mind that feeling and thinking are both valued equally by Jungians, and that one-third of men are feelers and one-third of women are thinkers. Note, though, that society does value thinking and feeling differently, and that feeling men and thinking women often have difficulties dealing with people's stereotyped expectations.

The last is Judging - Perceiving (J-P) , not one of Jung's original dimensions.
Myers and Briggs included this one in order to help determine which of a person's functions is superior. Generally, judging people are more careful, perhaps inhibited, in their lives.
Perceiving people tend to be more spontaneous, sometimes careless.
If you are an extrovert and a "J," you are a thinker or feeler, whichever is stronger.
Extroverted and "P" means you are a senser or intuiter. On the other hand, an introvert with a high "J" score will be a senser or intuiter, while an introvert with a high "P" score will be a thinker or feeler. J and P are equally distributed in the population.
Each type is identified by four letters, such as ENFJ. These have proven so popular, you can even find them on people's license plates!

ENFJ (Extroverted feeling with intuiting): These people are easy speakers. They tend to idealize their friends. They make good parents, but have a tendency to allow themselves to be used. They make good therapists, teachers, executives, and salespeople.

ENFP (Extroverted intuiting with feeling): These people love novelty and surprises. They are big on emotions and expression. They are susceptible to muscle tension and tend to be hyperalert. they tend to feel self-conscious. They are good at sales, advertising, politics, and acting.

ENTJ (Extroverted thinking with intuiting): In charge at home, they expect a lot from spouses and kids. They like organization and structure and tend to make good executives and administrators.

ENTP (Extroverted intuiting with thinking): These are lively people, not humdrum or orderly. As mates, they are a little dangerous, especially economically. They are good at analysis and make good entrepreneurs. They do tend to play at oneupmanship.

ESFJ (Extroverted feeling with sensing): These people like harmony. They tend to have strong shoulds and should-nots. They may be dependent, first on parents and later on spouses. They wear their hearts on their sleeves and excel in service occupations involving personal contact.

ESFP (Extroverted sensing with feeling): Very generous and impulsive, they have a low tolerance for anxiety. They make good performers, they like public relations, and they love the phone. They should avoid scholarly pursuits, especially science.

ESTJ (Extroverted thinking with sensing): These are responsible mates and parents and are loyal to the workplace. They are realistic, down-to-earth, orderly, and love tradition. They often find themselves joining civic clubs!

ESTP (Extroverted sensing with thinking): These are action-oriented people, often sophisticated, sometimes ruthless -- our "James Bonds." As mates, they are exciting and charming, but they have trouble with commitment. They make good promoters, entrepreneurs, and con artists.

INFJ (Introverted intuiting with feeling): These are serious students and workers who really want to contribute. They are private and easily hurt. They make good spouses, but tend to be physically reserved. People often think they are psychic. They make good therapists, general practitioners, ministers, and so on.

INFP (Introverted feeling with intuiting): These people are idealistic, self-sacrificing, and somewhat cool or reserved. They are very family and home oriented, but don't relax well. You find them in psychology, architecture, and religion, but never in business.

INTJ (Introverted intuiting with thinking): These are the most independent of all types. They love logic and ideas and are drawn to scientific research. They can be rather single-minded, though.

INTP (Introverted thinking with intuiting): Faithful, preoccupied, and forgetful, these are the bookworms. They tend to be very precise in their use of language. They are good at logic and math and make good philosophers and theoretical scientists, but not writers or salespeople.

ISFJ (Introverted sensing with feeling): These people are service and work oriented. They may suffer from fatigue and tend to be attracted to troublemakers. They are good nurses, teachers, secretaries, general practitioners, librarians, middle managers, and housekeepers.

ISFP (Introverted feeling with sensing): They are shy and retiring, are not talkative, but like sensuous action. They like painting, drawing, sculpting, composing, dancing -- the arts generally -- and they like nature. They are not big on commitment.

ISTJ (Introverted sensing with thinking): These are dependable pillars of strength. They often try to reform their mates and other people. They make good bank examiners, auditors, accountants, tax examiners, supervisors in libraries and hospitals, business, home ec., and phys. ed. teachers, and boy or girl scouts!

ISTP (Introverted thinking with sensing): These people are action-oriented and fearless, and crave excitement. They are impulsive and dangerous to stop. They often like tools, instruments, and weapons, and often become technical experts. They are not interested in communications and are often incorrectly diagnosed as dyslexic or hyperactive. They tend to do badly in school.

guess which is mine? :D find out in the next post on friday/sat!

我以为可以把你当作我的好友但我发现我错了。你好像忘了我们是好友似的。现在要和你讲话却什么都说不出口了。我真的不知道你到底是真心对待别人还是戴上了面具。如果你没流露出真情，希望你不会继续伪装。正在读我的blog的人，或许你们猜也猜不到我在说谁，因为事情并不是你们能想象出来的。唉。

plastic human dolls

2009-05-11T22:15:00.003+08:00

I didnt go school tdy cos i felt uncomfortable aft i got up this morning.
so i spent nearly the whole day at home except for gg out to buy my piano book.
chatted with some ppl on msn. & one conclusion is that never have the wrong perceptions abt others. some people just arent who they seem to be. & i used to have the wrong perception abt ppl but things just get clearer and clearer to me. seems scary. but this is life afterall.
yes, whether we like it or not. sigh =\
practised a lil of piano. after a few more months when im more stable @ piano, I'll strt gg for dance lessons agn. so meanwhile it's just saving up more & more money, working, school projects/assignments, piano lessons, church, choir.blah. if timetable next sem is not so sucky, I'll have more time to work! [not tt i love working but its the moolahs i need!]

ok. that's all for now. bye folks!
i'll try to add in some pics so that my blog wont be tt wordy/boring.
meanwhile, go to kokojun.multiply.com to view the pics. tyvm :D

放手并不容易，但我相信时间过了就会更容易放。

2009-05-10T22:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the mummies out there.
Thanks for everything you've done, and sacrificed for us.
Love! ((((((:

time passed by very quickly at work today & everyday i seem to be missing some people :s
tdy I miss Augustine and Pam. was supposed to spam pam's inbox but was kinda busy at work today so didnt msg her. haa. didnt see augustine for erm 3 days? idk when i'll see him agn man. sigh. anyway I know xx will wish that I miss her. muahahah.
I love working with Cindi. She's a Filipino [but came to sg for her university intern.] the amt she's being paid is damn pathetic. =\ we laugh and crap at lots of things which appears to be ridiculously funny! (:
After work, headed down to heeren to get something, then went to Beauty World for dinner with my family to celebrate Mother's Day. we went *dululaka restaurant [forgot the name] which serves perenakan food. not too bad. it was packed.
went fairprice with dad aft tt. bought cup noodles, marigold mango jelly, yogurt, jelly powder & etc. one of these days im gonna make jelly if im free! heehees. (:

tmrw sucks. I hate mondays a lot, partly due to speechcomm. =\
the gd thing abt tmrw is practising piano aft sch. mum's getting my book for me.
ok im damn tired now. going to sleep soon. 10.52pm [v early right? haha]
&&&&&& i've uploaded photos already! go http://kokojun.multiply.com to view the albums- Camwhoring, KL+Peranakan musem, Foody (got mango ice & MOF's green tea read bean :D)

get a life.

2009-05-10T01:32:00.003+08:00

be careful what you wish for, it may come true (:
if you tell a person to get lost, guess what? most likely you'll have to be the one to eff off first.
Anyway, that person's wish has come true because your nice fairy godmother has granted you your wish. Happy? :D go check it out. teehees~
I did it without thinking much. it's just a "remove" button and taadaa! :DD

last time when i quarreled with stupidass, we deleted and blocked each other off our msn list.
But now that we're cool, I added him back on my new msn account. At least he's not like some other people who only talks to you when they need help yet when you ask them to help you (cos your friend needed help) they will refuse to help. I call that friends-with-benefit. sucker.

Love can turn into hate? hmm...not that I hate him. his attitude just irks me. It was a mistake to know him from the start so to eradicate the problem, it must begin with eliminating the roots. If he is matured enough, I wouldnt need to do this at all. Well done you, you got your wish. I dont think i understand him at all. too bad. he is always forever unpredictable and its just a waste of time.

ps. my previous post wasnt directed at any specific person in particular. it's just a general overall thing. No offence to whoever feels convicted after reading it.

Disappointment?

2009-05-08T23:44:00.006+08:00

To those who dont like reading my blog, please F off.
I'm sorry if the content is going to be explicit or crude. If you dont like what you're about to read, please click the X at the top right hand of the screen. thank you very much.

Had 3 hours of break tdy. went to crash Jme's lecture bcos the ppl I msged didnt reply till quite late. before that, we went C3 to eat red bean milk ice. Fang Boon reminds me of Darling. I miss darling so much. D:
practised Shout it out loud. went makan place for chendol. then went to find my other classmates before Lecture at 62. Slept during the first half of the lecture. didnt pay much attn :s

The only major thing that happened today was an internal class talk to settle out any problems.
apparently after nearly an hour, nothing was done- to change how things are going to be.
But I received revelation about some stuffs. I feel disgusted and disappointed with some people but I wont point out who they are. Despite having the same faith, they do not behave according to their faith. They only can see the flaws in people, yet not themselves. It's like the bible story of not noticing there's a log in your eye that blocks your path yet still point out the mistakes in other people. Superficial, judgemental, bias, hypocritical nature of the oxymorons. I'm sorry that even if we have the same faith but I dont see the love, compassion or acceptance. Makes me wonder what you learn from going to worship every week. If you dont behave as how your faith is supposed to be, you're just wasting time going every week. Are you a truly sincere person who cares about others or only for the welfare of yourself? As long as it benefits you, even at the expense of others, it doesnt matter to you does it? What about other people's opinions? Do you care about what they say or you only what them to lend you a listening ear to hear your rantings and complaints but when they want to speak, you just turn a deaf ear or walk away. Why not just talk to a wall? *points pinky*& I hate it when ppl who dislike others act nice in front of them but throw daggers behind their back. stop being superficial. talking about being fake-you can say people are fake but what about yourself? If you are true to yourself you wouldnt even have to act nice at all. If you have a problem with anyone, just tell them la. Anyway if you can even think badly about them, what's more an extra step to tell that person in their faces. Why do you care if it will hurt them or not? You still think about whether they will get hurt because of the criticisms? I dont see why you have the guts to bitch about them yet have no guts to tell them directly where their problem lies. Dont you want to help them change? If you dont know them well, dont bother judging them. Even if you think you know them well [when most likely its actually not really well], dont judge. Because next time other people will be the one to judge you. There's no point trying to please others if you dont get the ending that you hope you'll get. Because they dont deserve being treated nicely or being pleased. It's not worth it. Stop wasting time and invest your lives into the right people because they are the ones who truly matters. Poly life's 360 deg different from what i'd imagined it to be. Perhaps enrolling into PCS was a wrong choice. should have sticked to HRM with Psy in SP. damn. or maybe go into JC. Then I'll still be with twinny dine & some others. True, I thought of transferring out after Exam last sem to another course. Not that I couldnt get in with my R4 but vacancies in courses were v competitive & because I hadnt withdrawn from NP yet, they decided to give the spaces to O level students. Otherwise I would have gotten out long ago. you wish I wanted to stay on and put up with the bloody sucky attitudes of a facade with people putting on masks as if they were at a Masquerade party? I think even if i were to go jc and get retained, I'ld still enjoy learning and receiving education. Studying has never became that dull and unmotivating.
PCS should be renamed as Please control selfishness. Perhaps there should be modules on loving people, caring for others, accepting those who are hard to love, how to be a less self-centred or selfish person, how to stop gossiping like a fishmonger, how not to be fake, how to act as a hypocrite even better etc, how to be non-judgmental, how to practise what you preach, how to stop building castles in the air, how to be more open towards others, how to improve on sucky attitudes & etc.
Class outings are cheesy instead of bonding people tgt? Think abt the person who tries to organise..how will they feel? At least they made an effort to try to bring people tgt but if you're not willing to even attend then dont even talk abt it being unncessary. Since a class isnt like how a united class should be, what's the point of making class hoodies? Or going for HMS events?
What will happen during graduation? Everyone will scatter or segregate themselves into their cliques? Oh come on.. Get a life and grow up. Mix around with others too la. Stop being so childish and limit yourself to what's in the boundary. Step out of your comfort zone.
I miss the me when it was semester 1. Where has your spontaniety and enthusiasm gone jul?

Thanks xx for talking to me at the right time. I'm not crying anymore. I'm stronger now. & I know Daddy's fighting for me too. I have nothing to fear. *sings everything's gonna be alright*
Even though I find it hard to smile these days, I wil try my best to smile and be cheerful cos I'm Little Miss Sunshine after all. JIAYOU! (:

Oh btw, tdy was my first day song leading Praise during cg. Hope I'll improve more (:

sometimes, even best friends can drift apart. & become strangers
& before you know it, things have changed so quickly.

to love, or not to love that is a question

2009-05-08T01:02:00.002+08:00

William Shakespeare said "To be, or not to be. That is a question"
So my question is, to love or not to love? Is it better to love or to be loved by others?
Sometimes when we are in love with someone, we just want to be with them, be near them all the time. & you find yourself missing them a lot.
But what happens when loving someone becomes tiring? It means that it isnt love anymore. Because love will not make you tired at all.
Why is there love? Because there is passion- you're passionate about something, that's why you love. right? if you dont agree with me, too bad. because that's what jul thinks [:
Is it better to be loved? I think so. But one-sided love will cause the other party pain. so there has got to be a balance between you loving that person, and that person loving you.
It is crucial to have communication when it comes to a relationship, just like it takes two hands to clap. One hand alone wont work.
Is it possible to like the same person again after you sort of gave up thoughts abt him/her? Yea, it's possible. Been there, done that. *take note I said like instead of love.

Jen was right, both of us have tough luck in love. I'm sure there are many others out there who are waiting for someone right to come along. it's a matter of time and destiny.

late blogging.

2009-05-07T02:56:00.003+08:00

I seem to be blogging at "Early" hours.
Was late by 10 mins for Piano lesson. Rushed up the escalator but ended up falling before I even reached the top. felt super paiseh cause someone was looking at me when I fell. poor baby fell with me. thank goodness it's still working perfectly normal.
Piano lesson was funny because I made silly mistakes. I need to practise more often le. must familiarise myself with the keys. Cher skipped many pages as I knew some basic stuffs beforehand already. We ended off the lesson at page 16. So actually covered about 5 pages or lesser. Hopefully I can proceed to the next grade soon! (: Mum has yet to get our piano tuned...
Did group discussion for stats at the lib tdy, then 2 hrs of speech comm. I was v bored during speech comm, so decided to use my hp to surf the net but connection was damn slow.
went home aft tt. received 2 of my packages from online shopping. One of it is a pair of black rose leggings, the other is supposed to be long white pants but ended up becoming a 3/4 one.
Still trying to see if can get a change for the 3/4 pants.
Time passed very slowly at work tdy. When I reached, had to handle a table of 12. Started panicking when the food started to arrive because there were too many things to serve. So I requested for extra help and sze hong came up to help me serve the food, while I took orders from a table of 2.
After Claire came and it was less busy, manager asked me to go down to level 1.
& something happened which surprised me. it seems like he isnt in a gd mood tdy.
anyway I asked to give out more postcards (tho that's what I hate) in order to avoid his bad mood. But things were ok aft tt.
While in the midst of closing, I was stacking the glass cups that had been washed. Suddenly, one of the cups "exploded" or rather, shattered into pieces. & I got into a shock for that few seconds.
a small fragment cut my big toe a little..didnt notice till it started bleeding a lil.
Gris and Sun helped me to clean up the glass pieces. Thank goodness manager wasnt around if nt i wouldnt know what might've happened. [I shld call the manager Roxy* frm nw on]

There's a staff meeting tmr but i dont think i will be able to get my pay till next mth because the boss wont wanna pay if your money earned for that month is less than $100, he will set it to the next mth aft. Nevertheless, i still need to go because they will be talking abt attire etc. sian!

nth much already. just that ive been undergoing shock quite a lot for wed so yea. escalator, roxy, glass.. 3 in 1 day. LOL.

I miss AH people.
Suddenly I think G isnt that cute. haha.
Augustine is more gentleman :D

*edited at 11.55pm

Had IS class today. acted out some drama thing. sch ended early so went EB earlier.[meeting was supposed to start at 5pm] slacked inside the function room with Claire and Eliza while waiting for the rest to come. around almost 5.20 then it started. some ppl werent present. Roxy told us abt attire, discounts etc. Took bus to batok, then train to gombak. Got a lift from Jason to EDB for iworship 101. Brother Poh was very impressive! I love worship tdy. awesomezxzxzxzxz.

something that makes me happy

2009-05-06T01:20:00.002+08:00

On saturday at MJ Showtime, Gerald and another girl performed the song Umbrella. I nearly cried when I heard that song because... i got reminded of stupidass. I realise how much I miss stupidass, studying tgt at mac. Everytime when I go back to that outlet, I will rmb abt the past. Recently, I tried searching for the __ stupidass gave me last time but I cant seem to find it anymore. ): There's something I havent told stupidass abt. Shld I tell him? hmmm... perhaps if it stays as part of my memory then its gd enough le.

On monday I went to school with my laptop charger but realised my laptop was at home. yes, laugh if you think its dumb. (:

met 3 ccksians tdy! First was Qi yun @ Clementi, next was Sze xiong and Steven on the lrt on my way back home. Both of them forgot my name can! Steven thought my name was Grace. -.-

Someone told me im bumpy. I thought he meant it in a bumper car way that kinda bumpy. haha.

I'm glad he sees me as Ms Sunshine because I really do want to bring sunshine to ppl's life (:

further and further away

2009-05-04T01:53:00.003+08:00

I didnt go for svc this morning because I slept at 6am so I know I'll probably doze off somehow in the svc if i went.
woke up around 11+, took bus to ECP. Walked at least 1.5 km to the baptism area.
Aft Evan gt baptised, he went to shower while I was with my parents.
Then my mother called Pst. Mary, & she asked me to join them once a while for svc. but i told her I dont want to. & then, slowly one by one, the other adults in wrpf start approaching me.
I wanted to run away from them la. oh and to make matters worse, someone called G & M.
then they spotted me and tried to talk to me. this was what I feared most.. that they talk to me.
I seriously didnt want any attention. it was uncalled for. Thank goodness both of them went to wash up so when evan was done, we went East Coast Lagoon food centre for lunch.
Either G or M called me but i didnt pick up. I was afraid I'll cry if I talked to them agn.
Switched off my phone instead so that I could lunch in peace. Ate stingray, carrot cake and mango ice kacang. Stingray is good! I love the stingray at ECP (:
took bus 401 to bedok. train home from there, dad went home to take apron out for me cause I needed it for work & realised I 4get to bring it out before i left hse.
Bus-ed down for work. was late :s super sian at work tdy. Pam smsed me to accmpy me. (:
Tried temptation island today (greentea drink). I love it. gonna drink it agn this wed!
was a little disappointed that ___ wasnt at work tdy. Wonder when will be the next time we'll see each other. Anyway, the boss came by around ten plus so now my fingerprint sign in/out thing is activated already. yay! :D

ok I gtg already. gonna do work! yea crazily at 2.05 in the morning. (:

I hate this feeling. I dont know whats gg to happen to this friendship anymore.
seriously. I dont know what to do.

ps. the G in this post is not gordon

And even if I search all the world

2009-05-03T01:35:00.003+08:00

Steph Munsey was great! I'm going again for sunday service. (:
He's my 4th fav. pastor of all time. 1st: Pst Kong, Phil, Rev John Bevere, Steph Munsey

Lightning outside. I'm scared. If blackout suddenly I no need to do work already.
Just when I thought I could get rest when I reach home, I realise need to do Speech comm stuff.
sucks to the max. I wont even be able to do anything tmrw as I'll be out the whole day can. D:

Service in the morning, ECP in the noon to witness Evan's baptism + cycling. Work @ Night.
Looks like I cant go CEFC for New Life AGM already. feel bad that I RSVP say I'm gg. ._.

pictures will be uploaded not anytime soon. I'm v busy these days. & yea gonna start piano class by this wk hopefully.

Take care peeps!

lobster red

2009-05-02T02:00:00.005+08:00

Choir outing was alright. not much excitement though.
played a couple of games, then slacked. Solero ice cream cost $2. ._. overpriced!
I became chaotah again tdy..sunblock didnt help at all man. ):
Jen was having a problem, so I wanted to meet up with her. Went Heeren she wasnt there, went Suntec she wasnt there as well. [but she claimed she was -.-]
went HK cafe @ Marina for dinner with Jason, Sherlyn and Xiaoxuan. Janice joined us too.
was very tired during cg. tried hard to stay awake.. sorry xx for ps-ing you back hme.
Wanted to slp on the bus home so I took 139 then transferred to 190 and sleep on my way home. Got a lot of bangalahs boarded the bus at one pt, then felt very uncomfortable.
Chatted online with Pam. she likes a smartypants guy, keep telling me he so cute and smart and talented. ._. So I told her about G and she say_______ ... haha whatever~
Having Pam as one of my girlfs is really good. Although we're not in the same course but we're still close It's ironic how things are with my own.... & i'm really glad that I chose Yoga for S&W otherwise I wouldnt have known her (=

& so, 2 May marks exactly a year of freedom from relationships. woohoo~
Throughout these past 12 mths, I've seen ppl come & go. (Esp. when I was still on vow)
Some left me with deep impressions, some spoke with words that could kill a fragile heart.
It's been really long since I last saw Mr. Happy. wonder how's life at the ice cream factory for him. lols. he still owes me the super ancient liquor at his house & I miss his "hahahahahaha" =x
I'm glad didi is doing fine. He's a handsome smart boy so i'm not worried over him tt much.
& there's others but im too lazy to list down. haha. pardon me. (:
I can admit I feel lonely sometimes but have sort of gotten used to that feeling already.
Having my good friends around should be sufficient for now cos I dont have a sense of urgency of getting into a r/s yet. wait till the guys are more matured. lols.
I hope she doesnt regret being with him, from the way she blogs its as if she's nt having a gd time. gd luck to her.(:

ps. I dont love you like I did on Christmas day. no more no more its gone.

虽然不想这么做

2009-05-01T01:37:00.003+08:00

More than a nice melody,
More than the sweetest of words,
This is the love i have found,
and with this love i am found.

I just want you Jesus, i just want you my Lord,
I just want you Jesus, i just want you.

Never could i comprehend,
The love you so freely give,
Never could i be with you,
But you love covers all of my sin.

I just want you Jesus,
I just want you my lord,
I just want you Jesus i just want you.

There is no greater love than yours,
Nothing else could ever compare,
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like yours God.

There is no greater love than yours,
Nothing else could ever compare,
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like yours.

I just want you Jesus,
I just want you my lord,
I just want you Jesus,
I just want you Jesus

ps. 我选择放弃因为这不是我想要的爱情

more random stuffs.

2009-04-29T02:56:00.003+08:00

IAC was okay. During lunch we ordered takeaway from Makan Place to Canteen 1 to eat. yumei was kinda unglam today. haha. shant say what she did though =x
there was a guy who behaved childishly, playing peek-a-boo with his friend in the canteen.

On my way to canteen 1, Jme called my name but I wasnt looking at her. I was like looking at fangboon cos his face looked super familiar & i tried to recall his name. When I said hi to him that time, he like gong gong one. haha. then Jme called my full name to try to get my attention. super funny at that time ok.

I really miss Canteen 1 man. I wished it was still in operation. Bubbletea, muachee. arghhh.
In the lift on the way to stats class, the doors closed partially on my arm & bag.
then that childish guy from the canteen happened to be in the same lift as me & he pressed the button to open the door, then said he saved me or something. dots ._.

struggled to stay awake during Stats lesson. & slept for nearly an hour straight through Personality lecture. blahblahs. someone told me there's a rumor that I like one of my classmates. To whichever no-life person who started that rumor, please get a life. I dont have any special feelings towards anyone. Liking classmates as friends isnt wrong, yes?

Choir pract was great tdy. Learnt a song " I just want You" by Planetshakers. Bound to move people to tears if sang in service. It's a really lovely song :D
oh yes, to end off this post..some guys with braces are cute/attractive.
I saw a couple of them during pract. hahaha.

Tiring day

2009-04-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

Health Psy LT was freaking cold okay! Too cold till I couldnt write notes properly..
Makan Place was packed so we went to Atrium. On my way down the stairs at Makan Place, someone called my name and said hello to me but after walking further I told nanny I cant rmb who is the person, it's like as if I dont know that person at all. Gosh...where had I seen her before? oh no my memory keeps getting bad. =s
Installed SPSS at the Atrium. Ended up restarting my com 4 times. poor baby D:
Speech comm tutorial was the shit! We had a pa jiao teacher who had to comment on almost everything we said in the midst of every group's presentation okay. I dont like her lesson.
Tarci calls her Dinosaur. lol.
Went home after school, carrying 3 textbooks. cost me $107! ):
Saw Aloy on the bus but I think he didnt recognise me so I bu hao yi si to say hello to him.
My books were heavy! If I carry them continuously non-stop for a week, I think my muscles will be stronger already. It's worse than loading my tray at work. :s
But I'm really glad I'm not working today because I have been feeling bad abt not eating dinner at home for nearly the whole of last week. so I get to spend time to eat with my family (:

I wont be blogging tmrw so I'll update more for now.
Lesson starts at 9 tmrw and there's a 3 hour break before the next lesson at 2pm.
As usual, I'm looking forward to Choir pract in the evening :D

ps. the weather is so hot. I wanna bathe but my sweat isnt drying.
Have got craving for Macaroons.

random stuffs (:

2009-04-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

asked some people on Msn what it means to be a Singaporean.
gf crapped with me & I nearly believed him. Click on image for larger view.

Went CEFC to collect my New Life volunteer's shirt. It's lime green in color. Although I dont fancy green but this shade of green is nice (:

Headed to Peranakan musuem with my mum and dad. Pretty interesting stuffs in there. Took pictures of the stuff inside the musuem. The feeling was v different from the one at Malacca.

Will upload the pics another day (yea I know I keep saying will upload pics from last time but up till now, still havent yet).

I dont know what to say. but I went through once before le. Second time going through it isnt a good feeling. Nope, I didnt cry this time but I know I might if things changes in the future. Okay maybe you guys will not have an idea of what I'm talking about but its alright cause I'm writing this for myself to see, as part of my memory.

I'm counting down to the days left. It's on the same day as AH booster training can see G & the day that Steve Munsey's coming to svc :D

That's all folks! I'm starting my piano lessons either this week or next week. LALA~

oh, & Belinda won an award in Star Awards 2009. Maybe she'll appear in Harvest Highlights this coming weekend. haha.

ps. 祝大家幸福 (=

Be firm

2009-04-25T23:46:00.003+08:00

Shuni came NP to have lunch with me. (:
saw Grace there, much to our surprise. lols.
saw Marcus too :D He also having IS after that.
sent shuni off to the bus stop and met up with Jme.
Then we went for IS lesson. Ate dessert and Makan Place aft tt.
Took bus to AMK. Saw Jeremy, ex SA student who looks like Russell.
Waited for xx to come, acc her to eat at "HK Cafe". Bought Matcha soft ice cream from Pepper Lunch. Greentea~ LALA. but it melted at a v fast rate ):
Passed by Value shop. They selling Winnie the Pooh letter holder. Cheap! So I bought it. haha. can use it to store the messy stuffs on my table top.

Ended school around 3 plus on Friday.
Took bus to find Jen at her workplace.
Ate with her during her breaktime. She ate mac while I ate dessert story's greentea with red bean. LALA~
Chatted with her over some things which were confusing me. I guess I should be firm in my decision and not keep wavering or have second thoughts. Unless..... ok whatever. I should stop thinking about that. zzz.
Headed to J8, Mos burger for dinner with Jason, Jme and Jeffrey.
Jason drove us to cg later... sermon was abt smoothening the rough edges.
After cg, the guys went for fellowship while the sisters went off.
Jme and I went HK Cafe near yewtee. shared cheese baked rice with chicken chop.
Went home after that. Slept at 1+ am. considerably early! :D

woke up close to 2pm this noon. damn shiok to sleep so long (:
ate, showered & left for Gombak. Jason drove me, xx, BY2's mum and Rina to service.
After service, went Clarke Quay for fellowship. Fell asleep on the way home after that.

ps. tempted to join Dance crew (but I'm afraid I wont have time for school work)

Ok end here for now. Gonna check my mailboxes and then do work already.
BYE!

Choices in life.

2009-04-23T01:05:00.005+08:00

Are you a lazy person? Being lazy is a choice. If you are lazy, bad habits would be cultivated.
You'll find that you dont really have a specific idea of what you want to do in your future. What is your aim/goal in life? What do you hope to do that can bring influence or impact the lives of the people around you?

Education is important. Why do you study? It's because you chose to. It's all about developing new skills and enriching yourself with new knowledge. It's self-beneficial and a whole process of learning, which is part and parcel of growing up.

Love and relationship. Loving someone is a choice. An important decision that leads to the future. Being in a relationship with someone is also a choice. What makes you choose this person, when there are so many others out there, what do you see in him/her that makes you love them? Not just relationship, but friendship too. Is your friendship selective? Do you choose the right kind of friends? Are you open to making new friends and fostering more bonds?

Values and beliefs. What values do you have in life? It's your choice because these values shape who you are as a person and helps you define what is right and wrong and do what you think is right. Unfortunately, what is right to you might not be right in another person's eyes. What you believe in will change your mindset about certain issues in life.

Choices.choose correctly and leave no room for regrets.
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IS day on Thursdays! Same class as Ange, Jme, Tongxin, Wanyi, Jon...
Guess what I chose for IS? Self Expression: Drama and Poetry for this term :D
Basic Conversational French for next term. Must talk to someone on the phone in French :s

Friend: everytime i see your face..u make me feel so high
Me: everytime I see your face, u make me want to cry

p.s. Does loving a person need a reason?

Untitled

2009-04-22T00:01:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging about Monday and Tuesday.
Monday was B-t-s. Had lecture from 11-1. Ms Emily told us we'll be going for an Overseas trip on wk5. Whee~
after that went to make Prestige card before gg FEP. Was disappointed that I couldnt find the pair of heels that I saw last fri. think it's sold out. Went Wisma after that. Taka to buy Glow magazine. Lunch was bread from the Jap bakery at Isetan.
HPB for YAH interview and Harbourfront's Dakra. Took bus to work after that.
Saw lover standing outside the shop when I was working so I ran out to talk to her. But I called her the wrong name as I had a classmate whose name was quite close to hers. Chatted for a while.
Manager was "so good today". He made me give out postcards with vouchers outside the shop when there was hardly anyone going by. It was so hot! & he made me stand outside for a considerably long time to give out. So I thanked him (trying to be sacarstic) when he gave me even more than what was originally in my hand and he just smiled that stupid smile of his.
Then after that, he made me clean the 2nd floor w/o the aircon on. He said "good what, like Sauna" I really wished I could push him down the stairs :x

Tuesday. Had Stats lesson at Blk 52. I nearly couldnt find the block. yea, it's very dumb when Blk 52 is HMS building. I got IS block and HMS block mixed up, thought its Blk 53.
okay nevermind. Next dumb thing.. I wore my shoes into the class when all shoes have to be removed. It was until someone told me that I was wearing shoes then I realised I'm the only kuku one who came in with shoes.
We were assigned into Stats groups randomly. Not really happy with the outcome but nth can be done right. Longsuffering-I need more of it.
I ~~love~~ stats man. have no interest for this module. In fact, I've forgotten most of the stuffs taught last sem already. thanks STM (:
Had personality lecture aft that. Assigning groups again. irritating task. At least it's much better than the grouping for Stats.
B&J's Free Cone Day today but I can't go. thanks to the shitty timetable.. ):
I guess the only think that makes me happy today is Choir practise. Learnt a new song tdy and practise This is our God. love it! :D
Thanks to Speechcom lesson, I wont be able to work the opening shift on Wednesday. $40 fly off just like that. Isnt that sad?
I seem to be grumbling a lot in this post.. sigh. Next post will be better I hope..

p.s. I just realised I havent uploaded pics since so long ago. oops. haha.

Holidays, I will miss you.

2009-04-20T00:54:00.003+08:00

Work on sunday was great. pretty slack & I like it more than my first day.
& so, my training is considered finish. Manager chatted with me on random stuffs. I think his mood is exceptionally good today. Someone said he was dancing when he came in this afternoon. lols. He asked me stupid qns like do you smoke, go clubbing, have a boyf, get paid for volunteering with organisations. blahblah.

Holidays have ended... & the new timetable sucks a lot. (:
The earliest day school ends is 3pm on wednesdays. But it sucks too because lesson on wednesdays are from 1-3pm so the people staying in the East have to travel so long just to get to school for a 2 hr lesson.
Mondays and Tuesdays end at 6pm, Thursday 5pm and Fridays 6pm. Really no life man.

It's 12.58am but it's too early for me to sleep. my biological is really screwed since I've been sleeping around 5 or 6am every morning. lols.
Today is going to be a busy day. School-town-HPB-EB. all in a day!

Ok. gtg folks. bye! Have a great night. (:

Perhaps I will never know

2009-04-19T00:53:00.011+08:00

up till now, I still dont have the answers to th 3 questions I wanted to ask.
But I dont think I will ever know the answers because I've nearly forgotten the 3 questions I wanted to ask. I guess it's ok not to know the answers. Would be better lest anyone gets hurt. (:
Nope, it's not a confession. haha. I'm fine with how my life has turned out. Ever since I turned 18 like nearly 2 mths ago.

Ididnt know why you told me those stuff. I wanted to ask you what the things you told me abt yourself had to do with me. I didnt want to imply anything from what you said because I dont want to end up getting sad again in the end. I only hope that you'll really be able to find someone to love because being loved by you will be a wonderful thing. I dont dare to hope anything for myself after what you said because I dont think it'll work out at all. Maybe I'll miss you more when you find someone you love but I'll be happy for you & hope you will treat the person like how you want to be treated. I hate being treated like 便利贴- i sort of felt like one by the way you treated me, as if i'm disposable.The last time my heart broke was when you said we werent close. it wasnt that I didnt want to be close to you, you chose to distant away. I tried talking to you, smses you didnt reply I told myself its ok. Avoiding my IMs didnt help to improve things too. I dont wish to get my heart broken again and again and again. too many times already, by the same person. thanks though, for causing me to wake up to my senses and see how impossible it is between us. Do I love you still? I dont really know. But the feelings were ever once real and strong.

Ok whatever. Just this past two days I've been feeling upset. Partly because sometimes people are just unappreciative of our efforts. It's not like we didnt do our best or try our best. Kinda disappointing & i-dont-know-what-else to say to them. Xx understands what I mean. Thank God for her. (: Xiao xuan, in the past I wasnt that close to you. I didnt want to share things with you [told you why already] or talk much with you but now that there has been changes in the cg......
Sometimes, I think I know how you feel on the inside because that's what I experience v often now.

I miss the old W412 days, when the rest were still around...the girl talks that some of us shared together. :') & of course there's Dumb too... I will really miss him a lot, because I've grown so used to having him around for the past 3-4 years that I can't seem to get used to not having him around. It just doesnt feel the same. ):

To dumb: Thanks dumb for constantly making me laugh and cheering me up, and try to entertain others by acting spastic though sometimes people may hurt you with words but you still continued to show your cheerful side as much as possible. I really appreciate a great friend like you & I'm proud to have you as my bestie, yes- besties who arent close. I wont forget what you did when we were at the playground last time cause I seldom see guys do that. haha. & I'll miss your cute cute mum who always provides food for us whenever we went your house. Tell her I miss her ok! I'll miss your out-of-tune singing voice too. [HAHAHA] & your soyabean face & the blue softie toy which i dont know when was the last time you washed it, & the monkey that's on your guitarbag. See...I can rmb these things so you better not forget them nor forget me. If not I smack you! Must keep in touch okays! ((: blahblahs~ & lastly, I'll miss you. Love you deep deep 98565432176234 infinity times! & keep growing stronger in Christ. Hope you'll be able to help Dan play guitar in the cg pretty soon & grow the cg stronger :D

XOXO,Sarah
ps. I know what it means to share things with people of the same/higher spiritual level already. (:

Love W412 & N457 (:

*edited.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON TIONG TIONG TIONG! :D

命中注定我爱你

2009-04-18T03:12:00.003+08:00

this show is nice. It makes me so emotional, especially the part when xinyi suffers from a miscarriage. ): I cant stop crying real badly at those scenes. it's really very sad although it's just a show okay. D:
& then cunxi gets angry at himself as to why he didnt pay much attention to xinyi in the past, which led to her miscarriage happening.
Though it's just a show but it reflects how rotten some guys can be. Jerks who dont care about others except for their own well beings and end up neglecting the ones who love them. They are so selfish and self centred that they dont realise their loved ones are suffering.
Does it make you happy to see them suffering?
What about Anna? She's selfish too. Only wanted her personal goal of getting cunxi that she forged an abortion agreement and passed it to xinyi, causing xinyi to believe that cunxi really wanted her to abort the child & that's how she got into an accident by dashing onto the road to run away from him. Ends up Anna she feels guilty for causing cunxi to lose his child. What does she gain? His heart? No. She gains misery.
Dont end up doing things you wouldnt wish to do just because of your own personal selfish gains which causes others to suffer in misery and silence.

Proud of you guys.

2009-04-17T03:29:00.002+08:00

My dance juniors helped the school to clinch a Gold for SYF.
really feel proud of them. I think they really worked hard, & not as slack as their seniors. haha.
Such a pity I'm no longer in Dance anymore. But I believe I'll take up dancing again soon (:
I still prefer singing over dancing! Afterall, singing is a passion I've cultivated since young :D
Maybe I can be like Miriam in the bible who sings and dance with a tambourine... (:

Have a sudden craving for ice cream and greentea again.
Suki buffet later in the afternoon! Can't wait man. haha.
It's pricier than Sakae but hopefully worth the money...
When school starts it's going to be time to save $ again. (:

Things to improve on

2009-04-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

Today (wed) was my first day of work.
Although I didnt really do much but still I felt tired.
I guess its because I didnt sleep long enough?
*Caryn helped me with training.. I was asking her questions. some really dumb ones too. I couldnt really sense the friendliness in her yet. Are people from Anglo JC hostile?
My supervisor was quite ok. friendly enough.. & I love the atmosphere..It's nice and relaxing.
A really good place to chill out. There was a couple who came from 6 to about 10. lols.
Time really passed very slowly. Do message me at work next time, I will reply v fast (:
I'm still considering the promoter job. the pay is slightly higher! It's permanent part-time too.
The bus ride home was fast. took 30 mins to reach home.

I feel the burden again. I'm scared again.
I really dont know how things are going to turn out now.
I hate the logistics. damn bias can. go figure. ok whatever. I dont seem to be able to make sense out of what I'm talking. am not my usual self of late. apologies.

thur's going to be a sleep in day. then perhaps go for a swim in the noon. I hate my uneven skin tone so I'll need to even out the dark skin.
maybe I'll look more like a Malay now? gees. dont know.

Eze's bdae. nearly forgot to wish him but didnt. HAPPY BIRTHDAY er ge! :D

Many things can happen over a year

2009-04-15T04:51:00.003+08:00

& so, 14th April marks the 1st year of poly life, also what was supposed to be......
this post aint going to be a long one. no worries (:
Just within a year, many things have happened + ppl changing for good & for worse.
No wonder they say people experience the most when they are 17. How true. (:
It's all part and parcel of growing up isnt it?

Choir pract was great.. The guys had funny movements. got to know 2 additional members from MJ Zone & made friends with the other members. Ever since joining Choir, I really love singing even more. & I want to serve Him as much as I can! Be it whether I'm in Choir, CHCSA or other voluntary org, I want to glorify Him in my serving. Serving God in the days of our youth is the best isnt it? & you never know who you might meet along the way while serving. right, G? (:
Haha. ok ignore the small words next time. for me to see only. LALA~
Of course, we'll have to be faithful in the little things before we can be faithful in bigger things (:

It feels weird getting caught between friends. Especially if you have to take sides.
sometimes I dont know what I should do.

You make me smile

2009-04-14T01:22:00.003+08:00

I was worried and sad over something. All thanks to my dear ones for chatting with me and cheering me up! (:
oh, I'm going to stop online shopping for now because im nearly bankrupt. not kidding. ):

Something random..
I dont like it when ppl come talking to me & saying that you're bored. If you werent bored, you wouldnt have came to chat. like DUHHH! I cant entertain ppl (actually is choose not to)
I dont usually give my msn out because I hate it when flirty/despo guys come adding girls and then ask them qns. then for a period of time stop chatting & then start chatting & ask back the same qns they've already asked before. seriously annoying. then they go like "Huh isit? How come I dont rmb asking you this b4?" Of course they wont rmb, cos they ask too many ppl the same qns till they forget who they've already asked. DUHHH. ok whatever. that's not my main point. Yes, I do give ppl attitude sometimes, to analyse their reactions or how well they can take it. That's before I make friends with them sincerely. & I dislike it when ppl assume they know me very well when they dont even understand me, or judge me. who doesnt?
If you arent happy with me, just stay out of my way and dont bother wasting time (:

Mini quiz:
1. Who are you thinking of right now? No one in particular.
2. What was your biggest regret ever? Spending money on wrong stuffs.
3. Are you missing anyone now? Yes, friends (:
4. Do you love anyone? Yes, God, my family, friends.
5. Do you like anyone? Think so. *grins*
6. What do you fear losing most? Precious time to spend with my loved ones.
7. Longest crush you ever had? Close to 3 years
8. What age will you get married at? Never. Haha. Dont know. fb says 20/ 38. LOL. crap
9. What is your biggest dream? To impact lives and rock the nations by serving others (:
10. What do you like the most about yourself? Smiling at the storms in life despite crying.

Once close but not anymore.

2009-04-11T23:36:00.004+08:00

*edited
Quacky didnt join me due to the heavy rain ):
I didnt go to Max's party tdy because I missed the stop & didnt know where to alight.
Sad case. & Max was like laughing when I told him over the phone that I was lost on a bus ):
I was really looking forward to see the others at the party. oh man. ):
one of them uploaded the pics on facebook. G looked great I'll have to admit & it seems as if he's the fav. target of the slightly older girls. (:
took bus to bugis, bought the $3 greentea Jap ice cream & walked 5 bus stops down to take 190. my legs were like killing me as I was wearing heels. But I endured.
even walked all the way home without taking shorter route.

Was on msn chatting with one of the Xiaoguas.
I really miss them. Long time never see them.. ~~& hearing them call me aunty~~.HAHA.
Talked to someone else too. Since we're not close, let's not even meetup because you have no idea how emotional I might get. You have never understood how I feel. I used to love you once. love is a strong word to use but yea, love ok. though I must thank you for helping me get over him.. I think its because I loved you more than I'd loved him. I didnt like the way you talked today, not a single bit. It nearly drove my anger into tears.I nearly cried. again. It has never been easy to get over a loved one, & to the extend of cutting my hair...
When I was almost getting over you, you started talking to me again. I dont know if its because you needed help or not. But I always wanted to listen to what you've had to say. I was hurt by what you said on msn, whether its meant to be in a joking tone or not. I dont wish to be affected again. so, we shouldnt meet anymore. Good luck to you in future. Since I'm not close to you, I find no other reasons to meet you. The star souvenir I bought for you from Malacca will be mine. Sorry if I've ever caused you hurt. But you hurt me just as badly as he did to me. my friends were right in saying I dont deserve a person like you. Perhaps the best goodbye present I can give to you is my tears. Because I only cry over things that are precious to me. Take all my tears before it runs dry. & take your attitude & pride with you. You're not worth me getting emotional all over again.
The three questions I'd wanted to ask you, I dont need to know the answers anymore. It's spelt so clearly to me- that maybe you were never serious about us. you just wanted flings. or whatever. I dont care.
I'm just weak and soft. D:

Okay, on a happier note, I'm going to chiong through Boys before Flower and finish watching it by today!
Ok nothing much already. BYE!

When inspiration comes

2009-04-10T06:25:00.003+08:00

If only you can look into my eyes.Tell me that you don’t love me no more.I can bring myself to walk out of this door.Without saying goodbye.So much I wish you can say.Yet there’s no more room for you to stay.So get out, get out of my life.You don’t belong with me at all.When you chose the other door.It’s as if you’re telling me.I’m not good enough for you.Tell me where did I go wrong.From the very start all along.Am I not pretty enough.Am I not stupid enough.I can see you’re not sorry.The way you talk to me.All the lies that tears me up inside.When will you stop the hurt.When will you start to grow up.I don’t need you in my life anymore.
dedicated to liars..I hope they will grow up.

When you feel warm inside just thinking about them.when you feel happy around them.when there's a piece of good news they will be the first you want to share with.when you feel secure and safe with them.when they mean a lot to you.when you go through sunshine and storms together.when you know you need them in your life.when you know you can depend on them but not make them worried.when the feelings are being reciprocated.when you are serious about them.when there is commitment.when you are faithful.when you dont break promises.when you truly mean every word that comes from your heart.when you dont try to provide lip service by sweet talking.when you show them affection and appreciation.that is love.

This is a dream.this isn’t reality.Cause what you get is often not what you see.It’s an illusion don’t take it seriously.If you don’t want to get hurt in the end.Empty promises I’ll never forget.Made my heart hurt so bad
Silent tears in the rain wash away my pain.Sunny days come back to me.Bleeding heart now you are free.So take my hand let’s dance.Sway along to the song and the beats.As we waltz down the streets.Hold me close don’t let go.Because I feel my heart is beating so; fast that I can’t breathe without you near.When you saw the pain in me.You took it all away.A smile from you is all I need.To make everything okay.

把美好的回忆，牢记在心里

Greentea's the new sex on the beach.

2009-04-10T01:54:00.004+08:00

*edited
Out with H tdy (: Saw the crazy sight of her. 1st time okay!
perhaps she got infected by me :D
walked for abt an hour arnd Chinatown to find good dessert shops and the $10 KTV. Sadly, the KTV was fully booked. So we decided to just find dessert shops.
A jap shop's bento set looked appealing so we ordered that as well as greentea ice cream with red bean for dessert.Somehow, it wasnt satisfying.
So we went to Marina Sq for more greentea ice cream :D
Took wrong train & laughed at our sillyness.
Went MOF for their Matcha dessert. red bean served with greentea ice cream and plain tang yuan. Nice! :D Me loveeeee <3
I'm starting to fall more and more in love with Green tea :D
Camwhoring session before going home.

Easter services this weekend! I'm looking forward to the drama. (:
I cry every year watching it. hahas.
Quacky is joining me this year-another thing to be happy abt :D

Financial blessings are coming~
Strting work next wk @ Essential Brew.
Attire: black polo, jeans & slippers. [haha. wthck man. wear slippers. LOL]
First time I hear ppl saying wear slippers for work..no injections needed, unlike Haagen Daz. Thank God (:
DOES ANYONE HAVE A BLACK POLO TEE TO LEND ME?
I need it for work. Do let me know if you have! thanks (:

ps. W412, we're on the papers again. A29 (:
pps. I'm proud of you, I really am (:

Once again, I'm wrong.

2009-04-08T23:50:00.007+08:00

Lies. I'm angry.

Ask you guys this: will you lie to people in order to cover up the truth so that they wont get hurt? or will you rather let them feel hurt when they discover the truth and find out that you have been lying? Yes, the truth will hurt them but your action of trying to cover up the truth will hurt them too. So which is worse? The latter of course.
chill jul, no point getting upset over this kind of thing. be gracious and forgiving (:

I'm going broke already. There's so many stuffs I want to buy on blogshops but im really financially tight to the max. I think I'm crazy about jackets. haha.. I ordered a biker jacket like a few weeks ago but now I'm going to order 1 mre.
see the jacket I'm wearing in my blog picture? It costs around 80 bucks can! but I no money to buy so can only pose with it and take pic :(
I want to save enough money [who knows how long it'll take] to buy it :(
Can someone sponsor me so that I can buy more ~~jackets~~ clothes? I will love you to death :DDD

Here's presenting to you my hubby.

I love his dimples(cant be seen in his picture)
Seeing his face makes me laugh. I dont feel angry anymore :D
Haha. dont you love him too? <333

Balance is the key

2009-04-08T04:11:00.003+08:00

Was at Cozycot forum, browing through the Relationship categories.
pretty interesting reading what people have to say.
Found something interesting so I decided to blog about it.

There are 3 kinds of relationships
1. She loves him more.
She puts in a lot of effort to make things work out- compromise and put up with the guy's nonsense but the guy loves himself more than he loves her, considers his own best interest at heart when it comes to decision-making, doesn’t believe in long term planning and commitment.
She tries her best to accept the flaws of the guy and be the driver of the relationship.
She will voice out about her unhappiness when the relationship hit a problem and hope that the guy can compromise.
For some of the things, the guy will try to compromise, but some time, he will reply it with a rebutt which the gal has to accept if not, he will have a walk out kind-of-attitude.
Sometime, some of the compromises as proposed by him could mean to go against her principle, as someone who has fallen head over heel; she will give herself reasons to accept it.
Unresolved problems come back to plague the relationship each time she compromises. But still, she work very hard for this relationship, she tried to be more understanding, she tried this and that, she tried to accept the reason given by the guy and give herself reasons for the misunderstanding and unhappiness.
All these because… she loved him more than he loved her and she believed that someday, somehow, the guy will start to see the amount she put in to the relationship and be moved and start to love her back equally or more.
This vicious cycle will just continue until either the gal is totally exhausted or that the guy found a new target. [saddening huh?]

2. He loves her more.
He treats her nice and she starts out a relationship with him. Initially, she was moved by the sincerity of the guy and venture into the relationship- both loved each other equally.
As days goes by, his love for her grows faster than her love for him and she starts to love herself more and start to change.
From what was once warm and cute relationship has now become cold and boring relationship. He senses the change in the relationship and puts in a lot more into an endless pit of no-return. He will try hard to rekindle the relationship, try buying expensive gifts and so on. She looks more into herself and her personal life is putting lesser and lesser into the relationship. When she loves him less, she seems harder to please, no amount of effort from him is ever enough. He seems to be doing the wrong thing at the wrong time. Though he tries very hard to please her, it does not seem to be going anywhere.
The ending is rather predictable. She is totally bored of him and left for someone new or, he felt terrible about the end pit that he has been putting effort it and decided to call it quit.
All these because she takes his care and effort that he contribute in the relationship for granted and maybe demand more. Perhaps she is too caught up with herself to love him back the same amount. [selfish girls. sighhhh]

3. Both parties love each other equally.
We must understand that in a relationship, love must grow over time and at the same pace. When the love from one party seems to grow faster than the other party, issues will occur, expectations will grow and they start to take each other for granted.
Always remember, when we love them, don’t expect them to love back. If they understand and is able to see and appreciate the amount of love and effort that we put in, they will put in the same amount of effort and love. When they start to love us more, love them back the same amount or love them even more. When the love and effort which is put in to the relationship is reciprocated, then can the relationship progress.
Such people who can appreciate the love that we put in are then truly worthy of our love.

Love is not only about giving. It is true that we should give selflessly in love but remember to give to someone who is truly worthy. Love is not just about one person or the other person, it is about couple and their surroundings that on the whole, makes a relationship complete. Drive and be driven in a relationship...Balance is the key.

as abstracted from http://forums.cozycot.com/1184946-post37.html

p.s. Happy birthday Maxicab :D
p.p.s Happy 10 mth Anni Jiawen & Jimmy :D

Happy birthday

2009-04-07T00:37:00.004+08:00

Korkor and Pastor Zhuang :DDD (April 6)
Seoul Garden. left phone at home so no pics. Super full. bloated stomach. Durian cake from Gombak. super good mood. meeting Clown for Sakae buffet later. going to be fattening D:
take pictures with him and post his super unglam faces on facebook *grins*
Max's party this Sat. buffet again!

oohh, somethin random. I met lover yesterday (:
we were at CCK platform waiting for the train..
managed to catch up quite a bit. I miss her ):

haha. okay nth much already. is this post short enough? :D

*edited
I'm back from Sakae. Ate lots of tofu and drank several cups of green tea.
going to upload clown's pic on facebook soon. (:
I asked him abt M. it seems tt they arent tgt anymore.
I'm glad that we're still in contact sometimes bcos he doesnt talk much to M.
poor guy seems to be thinner and thinner ever since... yea. but I still like his clownish smile.
just dont like his teeth only but I dont know why he's happy abt his teeth. lols.

I was thinking abt. what Ed told me. I didnt know if I should believe what he said.
But I cried when he said that...because I think I felt the same way too.
He's going to army in like 3 mths time. I think I'll miss him even more then :s
Maybe I'll cry? haha. I dont know. But he will definitely become more tough, macho, stronger, black [hahaha :D]

Often, we dont cherish things that are precious until something happens to make us realise we need to cherish before time runs out.

Multiplication day

2009-04-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

& so today was a day of emotions. Even the rain was merciless today.
As a result of the downpour, cg started late. No praise songs, only worship.
& then after that was testimony sharing as usual, followed by the multiplying.
tears were inevitable and almost everyone started crying. yes, even the guys too )':
I was surprised by the outcome of multiplication. Will definitely miss those in N457 D:
Anyway, its a new start for everyone again. So let's all jiayou for Him :D
It's time to step out of our comfort zone! (:

Our last cg outing, on friday was the most memorable one.
We went Botanic Gardens and it so happened that while we were climbing a tree, a news reporter from The Straits Times approached us and asked if she could take a photo of us.
So the next day (yesterday), Jason msged us to tell us that we're on the papers.
dumb excitedly went to buy the papers and true enough, we saw ourselves on page A3 (:
This is what a cg should be, united as one in everything.
It wasnt easy getting everyone up the tree but we managed to do it. (:

I've got even more pics to upload now.
But I'm still kinda lazy to do so..might upload next week instead. hee.

i cant sleep at this time of the day

2009-04-04T01:21:00.003+08:00

Here's a proper post.
So this week I didnt really go out that much. So nothing much to blog abt also.
Spent time watching dramas online. I love my husband :D
He is only 20 this year leh! But he looks older in shows..
As for this week, I only went for 2 out of 4 days of pm.
Didnt go on thurs because my mum helped me to dye my hair so by the time my hair was done, it's past half of the pm time already. Didnt go on fri as there was picnic @ Botanic which ended around 7 plus. We took pictures and even climbed the tree! slippery & scary, nearly fell down =x
Dinner @ Bedok central. Ate the super big watermelon & barley ginko nut for dinner (:
Took train home with Jme and we saw abt 4 people wearing the same shoes.
One of it was being self-designed and the rest were plain ones..
If I were to own the plain shoes, I would sure draw stars, hearts and Lil Ms Sunshine (:

I wasnt in a good mood just now & there's this guy who came talking to me on msn saying he was bored.so I told him "sorry. I cant entertain people..please talk to other people (: "
and he said something like" no I am entertaining you" so I just told him "no need..its alright" and I changed my status to Appear Offline cause I really can't stand his nonsense.

p.s. What would you give a 21 year old person as their bdae present?

Maxicab's bdae party is like next sat & I havent thought of what to buy him :s

Honey coated cotton candy sugar baby

2009-04-02T04:27:00.004+08:00

Tues, 1 april. Bad day for the start of the month
Apparently things havent been going as planned for the week.
But its okay since im a flexible person.
Just that I dont like planning to go out and ppl last min tell me they cant.
I seriously dont feel like asking already. Why cant they organise it instead of me?
To certain people, perhaps I'll always have to be the one asking them out, only to get disappointed by the outcome of things. I'm tired of putting in effort when they dont.
& I'm sorry to those who sometimes try to ask me out like1 day before the actual day but i always make plans 2-3 days, or a week before the actual day. so I apologise if i cant seem to find time to go out with you guys. unless i dont have plans then of course I will agree. (:
Shiya was right in saying something...dont wish to elaborate cos its not a good thing to say.

Didnt go gym today. wanted to go swimming instead but my mood was a bit spoilt.
partly because I had diarrhoea twice ): & th other reason...
so I stayed home to watch my Taiwan and K drama.
Felt like eating tuna so I ended up cooking it. first time, not bad. hahas.
showered and left for pm. it was raining heavily but thankfully the rain became smaller when I reached jw. was a little early so tried to settle down and go through the list of things I intended to pray. time passed faster today, maybe because I tried to focus more..
teared while praying for Jen cause I really feel burdened for her..
& I feel more peaceful abt the challenges in my life. 신은 나의 생활에 있는 도전보다 크다
I've never really liked praying but I guess it's all about battling with the flesh so I must win the battle.

Inspiration has never come easier. I wrote another song just now (:
Here's bits and pieces of the songs I've written. it consists of 4 songs.. feel free to give me feedback about my songs yea? thanks (:

Just like a honey coated cotton candy sugar baby
I love the way you came to save me
You’re like an angel in disguise
Who gave me a surprise

Things may seem to go wrong
The journey feels so long
When I don’t know what to do
That’s when I found you

I see it in your eyes
And I wonder what it’s like
To be in love, love, love tonight.

I miss you I miss you
Told myself I don’t love you
Cause it’s too late for regrets
Love was never a game to start with

p.s. can't wait to see G again
p.p.s I'm going to exercise more!

Happy April Fool's Day! :D

2009-04-01T01:54:00.005+08:00

I dont really want to play much tricks on people this year.
Just that kuo feng and shalini and Jaime were my victims :D
kuofeng and shalini came to me. she told me she was a lesbian.
then I asked if she was serious, she said yea. then Happy April Fool's
I was like wthck! i almost believed her. so dumb right? zzz.
so I told her a secret that I've hidden for quite some time. muahaha. [wanna know? read till the end to find out :D ]
then kuofeng came to me and I told him I'm officially a les.
& his reply was that he's a gay. apparently it was SOOOO convincing, not.
then he said something which cracked me up. hahas.

his friend was a chiobu so he really believed her when she told him. awww..sadded. LOL.
I told Jaime I was a les and said some extra stuffs till she believed me.
she said it was okay since I've been hurt by guys till I'm kinda confused. haha. when I told her HAFD, she $%^@*! and eee idiot blahblah. lols.

well actually the secret I told shalini.....

was that I've.........................

got..............................................

eh wait. you really want to know?

a boyfriend............

[okay. now that i've revealed it. you want to know who that person is?]

keep scrolling...........................

handsome

and scrolling................................

and popular

and scrolling.................................

and has a lovely tan

and scrolling....................................................

& taadaaaa!

muahahaha. Happy April Fool's Day! (:

p.s. I played a trick on Gordon =p

5 days time.

2009-03-31T16:25:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was spent at Saun's house watching movies.
watched Dark Knight and Spirited Away. no time to watch Stardust.
on my way home, bought bread from the bakery at Jelapang before heading for the carpark.
But I couldnt pray for long as I saw flashes of lightning. (yea im scared of lightnings)
Went home, showered, pm over the phone and then watched CSS results.
aft that, continued watching my korean drama- Boys Before Flower.
I dont like the main actress. It'll be better if her friend was the main instead.
Domyouji jap version is the korean Gu Jun Pyo. Both acting skills abt the same.
Hanazawa Rui and Yoon Ji Hoo attracts me with their smiles. stunning. heehee.
I have to admit that I love guys who can smile. the kind that has dimples and nice looking teeth when they do so. sunshine boy ^^
I wont reveal the remaining qualities a sunshine boy should have. only those who are close to me will know. muahahaha.

Was thinking about certain cell group stuffs and it bothers me.
Sometimes I wish I can tell Jason but I just dont know how to put it to words.
& I dont feel like sharing with others because I'm scared my water taps wont be able to stop.
I've tried my best. stepped out of my comfort zone to talk to people yet sometimes I feel....
ok whatever I'm not going to play fill-in-the-blanks game or connect-the-sentence game.
There can be a family but within the family is still people and a smaller group. I dont know if its meant to be rigid, the way things are being done or handled.
Often, we can pick out the mistakes that people make yet we dont see the mistakes we've made.
In front of that person, we can refuse to say it but yet in front of a bigger group we can say it. Why so? Have we thought of how hurt they will feel? What about showing favouritism? Nevermind about that or if you dont get me its okay. (: I'm not really targetting it at any particular person. no offence yea.
Whenever I feel hurt, I wont tell you even though I wish I can share with you sometimes.
Just that I'm afraid my words will turn harsh and I can predict the outcome of things.
Perhaps when the time is right, I will say it even if things are going to change after that.

It's time to be disciplined

2009-03-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

Had cellgrp at Gombak today. Saw Jeremy my PAE classmate while waiting for the rest to come. He still looks like a pretty boy (:
Had a good time at cg although there were only 14 of us.
While waiting for the guys to help us order takeaway,
we chatted about going to Shenzhen/Hongkong for holidays.
But that's only going to happen like next March cause we have to work during the next long holidays in order to save enough money to travel...
Ate at the function room area during fellowship, followed by zhong ji mi ma near the pool area.
We played Truth or Dare as the forfeit (but our game only got truth, no dare).
Around 7 plus, we went to the video shop to rent movies for tmr's movie marathon.
The deposit for the 3 videos was $40. Kinda costly for deposits huh.
Hurried back to the function room for OB's 非常歌手 (Very Singers) event.
Watched a video on JJ and Sherlyn shared some of her experiences with the OB people.
Was surprised that Louis from cckss was part of the VS course. :o
& i was hugged by some random guy I didnt know when they say go around and give others a hug to encourage them. He even said dont cry, when I wasnt even crying. Maybe he mistook me as a part of the course so nvm abt tt. Worse thing was he had........
only Fion knows what I mean. haha. >< nt very nice to say out also. secret secret. ^^''
ok. short post for today...(:

I need a breakthrough !

2009-03-29T02:52:00.002+08:00

Let me blog about what happened on Saturday..
I slept at freaking 6+am in the morning.
You know what I was doing the whole time?
Checked out academic stuffs. Wild thoughts running through my mind.
I couldnt sleep with what I felt bothered with.
Besides that, I wrote 2 songs. feels as if its an accomplishment for now :D
I wish Poly had Diploma in Song Writing. I'll transfer if there was. LOL.
Both songs were inspired by Gordon. [haha] I think I was really psyched with the smile..
till both my songs ended up having the word "smile" inside.
I forced myself to sleep around 6plus cos I had to wake up in time for Prayer meeting-pm
& Guess what? My alarm didnt ring! I dont know what is wrong with it. grr.
Thank God bestie called me. Otherwise I would have slept on and end up late.
Took train all the way down to Clarke Quay. PM was really fantastic. I feel so refreshed.
I'm not going to be mediocre anymore (:
Lunch at LJS then headed to expo. Slacked at subway. Pre-service pm aft tt.
Svc was good. CCC Band really brought down His presence.
I could feel it so strongly. & I love the songs being sung today. (:
Bible study after svc. Min Jing told us that he loved preaching since young.
So he would lock himself in his room with soft toys surrounding him and he would practise preaching to them. Haha. Didnt know my Zone supervisor can be so cute. lols.
Went to find the rest at Century Sq after bs ended. Chatted with Shir.
I love girl talks! <3 muahahaha. Its a coincidence that K and G were from the same sch.
Dont worry Shir, I will remember to pray that K will come for Easter. I'm sure Huiting will be happy too if K comes. *big wide cheshire cat grin*
& I found out Huiting does online shopping too...We're both going to wear the glossy leggings tgt for service next week :D

Hey guys, please pray for me. I need a breakthrough in my studies.
I'm very worried over a particular thing. & I keep feeling very bothered over it.
Dont know what I can do except fasting and praying.
Father, if you want to test my Faith I'm willing to go through the test.
But I pray that you will answer my prayers even as I ask.

Saun says my blog is fierce.. I guess its not jerk-friendly.
Apoloies to the jerks out there who are reading my blog.
You can press ALT + F4 anytime. Be my guest (:

Stupid mistakes I have to stop making.

2009-03-27T21:09:00.005+08:00

Mistakes that are made, can never be erased.

Chatted with lover just now. Told her about Gordon *winks*
She didnt dispprove nor say he was a jerk whatsoever.
I couldnt help laughing when she said "Good job lover!"
Okay. Dont ask who Gordon is, its just a code name for someone (:

One stupid mistake after my eighteenth bday that I'll never ever forget.

I love online shopping. It's so convenient!
after so long..I've ordered a cap, stretchable jeans and a biker jacket.
Wait till I have more money, I'll buy even more clothes. woohoo~

Believe me if I said love makes people commit mistakes they wished they never did?

I may look cold on the outside, just like an Ice Queen.
But I'm soft hearted when it comes to handling things.
perhaps its a mistake being soft hearted afterall.

The only mistake I would not regret doing because of love would be cutting my hair.

Sorry for such a dull post.
I will smile more and when there's interesting things,
I'll be sure to blog about it I promise.
Apologies for not uploading pics. Will be up by next week :D
okay going to watch American Idol now. working on my song after that.
Bye people!

It doesnt matter what you do now. Because I've already cut my hair. 8 days ago.

p.s. keep that smile plastered on your face, Gordon. Its priceless. =)

Down with flu

2009-03-26T22:20:00.005+08:00

It all started with coughs yesterday,
followed by countless time of sneezing today.
My throat doesnt feel good so I didnt talk much today either..

Went Holland V area yesterday to search for jobs with Jen.
I'm still thinking over Essential Brew, Haagen Daz and fugii.
Really not sure which I should join since the pay range is the same :s

Today my whole day was spent watching dramas and going around my neighbourhood to enquire about piano courses. took the lrt from senja to pending, about 5 stops away.
Went Bpcc where Christofori was. after that, stopped at bangkit for honeydew sago.
Next, walked to Ossia at Fajar and followed by Greenridge Music school at Jelapang.
Walked home after that. I cant believe that I walked 5 lrt stops home.
Been a long time since I walked long distance [actually got cut through blocks. hees.]

Watching AI.
Adam Lambert is the sex on the beach and Allison is the powerhouse.
Such a pity Alexis was out the previous round because of the wrong song choice.
A competition is still a competition afterall. *Nods head*
Speaking about competitions, Emerge preliminary rounds is less than a month away.
J4M, we need to start practising soon! do you guys sense the urgency? =x

edited*

browsed through one of my ex church member's (wrpf) facebook profile.
Somehow, its like as if I have forgiven them for what happened in the past.
I dont know if I should blame them in the first place but it takes two hands to clap..
so surely the faut lies in me too. Just that I dont really know where.
Anyway, seeing how they have grown, I feel happy for them.
Yet when it comes to keeping in touch, I avoid any contact with them.
& one of my fears of going back just for a visit, is that they will try to talk to me,
which I dont wish for it to happen because I've got nightmares of that before..
How would you feel, if the place you grew up in becomes a nightmare? =\
I'm doing fine at where I'm currently at. & I hope you guys will respect that I want
to have as minimum contact with you guys as possible.
Sorry for not replying your smses, GP.
............................

Oh yes, something interesting to share..
Maxicab wrote on my wall his version of the superman part that goes "I'm more than a bird....more than a pretty face..."

im only a man with a silly pay sheet,
Digging for extra cash on this one way street,
Only a man with a low pay sheet,
Looking for special things inside of me,
.....................
And its not easy to be me~~

& this is mine.
Just look beneath what your eyes can see,
Its not as simple as it seems to be
I'm just a girl with nothing to eat,
though it seems like I can afford to treat
..............
And its so easy, to bully me.
*SIGHS*

hahaha. okays shall end here :D

Current facebook status:

Sarah Julia smile when life gives you lemons... because lemons can be made into Lemonade... adding a dash of honey makes it sweet {♥}

p.s. Gordon mens Hero (:
p.p.s "Gives you Hell" is the new wtf.

Try this out!

2009-03-24T12:48:00.003+08:00

Was tagged by xuan on facebook to do a note..
Got time? Try it here: http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/

You are Green Cheetah, who has a mysterious and fantastic atmosphere around you.
You look a romantic sort of a woman, but you are really short tempered and will move on straight to your ideals.
You are passionate and don not like to loose.
You are not just a person who goes for your dreams, you can also think about profit and loss.
You will not disregard your interest to emotional likes and dislikes.
You are a hard working person, but can be little too nagging and are too self-confident about your ability.
You may be seen as strong-minded person.
You can approach aggressively to your objective and ideals, using your energy and natural instinct. But you should not forget kindness and consideration for others.
You may pursue financial gains and material things at first, but gradually you will start to seek for spiritual things.
When this happens, it will be a tuning point in your life, and you will be able to think more peacefully.
With your spiritual fulfillment, you will gain materially too.
You seek something you lack yourself in men.
Only those who are smart and active can stick up with you.
Once married, you will control your husband, and be a nagging wife.

Okays. I feel that certain parts arent really true. I'm not self-confident about my ability
& I dont need smart and active people to stick up with me cause I hate stuck ups.
Just be like how a genuine friend should be and I'll be contented enough. (:
As for the last sentence on controlling my husband and being naggy, I dont think it will be true because I am not a control freak, I give people their personal space too.
Nagging is sure to happen occasionally I guess. It's out of concern that people nag right? lols.

A servant's heart

2009-03-23T21:32:00.004+08:00

Met Jen. After that, I went home.
changed into another top before going to Cefc for the volunteer interview.
Ended off with a short prayer session.
Went library to return books and borrow books aftermath.

I havent been in my best moods of late.
I do try my best to smile as much as I can though. (:
Whenever unpleasant things happen, I try to avoid it if possible.
If not I will just have to face it and get it over & done with. YEA!

I feel burdened for the community.
There's so much I want to do to help yet I'm just me.
I wont even be able to help much when the school reopens.
I really need to manage my time wisely from now on.
Father, please give me the grace and strength (:

I miss cell group. Although I havent been attending for the past two weeks, it feels as if I havent gone for like ages. Really miss you guys a lot!
& I miss Jiawen too. it's been a while since I met up with her.
& Kangliang ahgong, i miss you as much as you miss me..prata prata when you're back!
please dont become so cheena okay.

Alright nothing much already. BYE! :D

p.s. I dont know why you are treating her this way. What is wrong in your kuku head?
is it because you cant commit? or could it be that she is the one at fault for being too persistent?
I didnt get to know her properly so I dont know what she is like.
But whatever reason it is, please treat her better. If not what I did for you would be nothing.

What would you do for love?

Impactful (:

2009-03-22T23:49:00.002+08:00

It was my first time serving at choir today.

Really thank God that I still have the chance to sing cos the last time round when I couldnt wake up in time, I thought I would be blacklisted.

It was great being on stage and seeing the entire congregation singing..

From the stage you would get a totally different view than when you're seated on the floor area or terrace.

Comments that the I/C gave was that I tned to tilt my body the wrong direction, sometimes 45 degrees left, sometimes 45 degrees right. I guess that's one thing I've to improve on. JIAYOU! :D

oh yea. Worship is the part I worry about the most, because my hands had to be lifted up higher than the normal service so I was afraid my hands will start drooping down as it can be tiring.

get what I mean?

After debrief, rushed off to training.

& so today was the last day of the training for Youthpals.

I really learnt a lot from these 3 days of training...
made new friends, had greater self awareness, learnt how to be empathetic towards people's situation, self-disclosure, did some deep thinking of case studies, counseling, asking questions that will cause people to think further about their situations, providing suggestions that people may consider without giving them direct answers to their problems because it's their own life so they have to decide what steps to take. (:
I will definitely miss the people in my group & some others too.(:
Rushed off after collecting my certificate.
Met my family for dinner at TMJ's Different Taste Restaurant for Mum's belated celebration.
Home after that~
I'm going to watch my online dramas now! BYE! <3

I dont know why you are doing this.
If you are so afraid to let anyone know about two of you,
then make sure she doesnt even post pictures.
If not it defeats yur purpose of changing your status.
I'm not dumb. I know what's going on. Dont fool me cos I aint going to be fooled.
I'm no longer Ms gullisble. not anymore. I've grown up now.

Recently, something weird has been happening.
I dont know how to explain it. I'm not that hopeful..
cos I dont even know what's going to happen from now on.
Perhaps every cloud has a silver lining.
I'm still keeping my fingers crossed, time will tell it all.

As for 威俊，it seems as if you only come talking to me when you need help.
Is this how you consider a friend as? Someone you can talk to when you need help.
But have you even considered how I feel? Sometimes when you dont reply me..
I told myself its ok. yet everytime when you talk to me, I dont ignore at all.
Perhaps we shouldnt keep in touch anymore? Would you be happy this way?
3 months since I got to know you & i hope you are happy with your life now.
sooner or later, I will just be a friend worth forgetting.
Where do I stand in your life? seriously, I dont even know.

this month, I wasnt affected abt 14. YAY! :D

I love you, Mummy =)

2009-03-21T23:37:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! ;D
You may not be the most perfect mother
but you were the one who brought me into this world
[although many times I wish I wasnt living in this world]
I remember when I was young, you made dresses for me.
Not just any dress but those identical to yours.
Thanks for the sacrifices you have made, not just for me but this whole family.
I may be unappreciative of your cooking often but it doesnt stop you from cooking.
Homecooked food is still the best because every dish is made with love and sincerity.
When I struggled with my decision about my tertiary education,
your hug and comforting pats on my back gave me encouragement to go on
[although I'd stretched myself to the limits and broke down constantly]
I might not have lived up to your expectations and I know during that period of time,
I'd caused you and dad to worry over me and pray that I'll make the right decision.
I'm know I'm not as smart as cousin Jo, David or Jean yet you still had faith in me
& believed that I would be able to overcome the most difficult period of my life.
I may not be good with words, especially when it comes to saying I love you face to face.
But still, I want to say that I love you mummy, now and for always. (:

This year, it's the first time Mum has a non-cream cake for her bday cake.
This year, it's the first time I've eaten a non-cream cake as her bday.
This year, it's the first time I cried while singing the birthday song for mum.
This year, it's the first time I'm crying so badly for a loved one while blogging.
This year, it's the first time I cried because of the fear I have of losing her.
This year, it's the first time I'm blogging about my imperfect yet perfect mum.

世上只有妈妈好. It's really true, that it's great having a mother.
So people, please appreciate your parents. treasure them.
because without them, you wont exist.

As every year passes, has your love for your parents grown deeper?
When was the last time you showed them appreciation?
Think about it.. (: